I'm getting annoyed with not knowing what people are thinking and/or feeling. It's my own fault for not asking outright, and their fault for not telling me when I do. On that note, it is also my fault for not making sure of these pre-supposed feelings ahead of time; damn my impulsive nature. Somebody should poke out my eye and skull fuck me ( Read more... )

Well...some interesting facts that you guys may want to know about:

- I'm changing my name back to Shane Elizabeth Homan.
- I have another half sister that I just found out about.
- I'm meeting my father and his family.

You know, I'm the one that innitiated the break, but I don't want things to be this way. I still want to be with Him. I don't want to be with anyone else. I mean, I might get little crushes on people, but nothing that I would ever really want to act on. I just want him. But he's such a god damn paranoid, controlling fuck sometimes that I can't ( Read more... )

1. Using band names, spell out your name ( Read more... )

Yayayaya!!! Tim Kelsey just e-mailed me back, telling me that the meeting can support 175$ worth of my money needed for BYM! Not only that, but I'm getting the other half from BYM itself! I feel so fucking relieved! Now I won't have to hear about money problems and issues with the car insurance or any of that shit! Oh my gosh, you don't know ( Read more... )

Mmm...I've finished my forms for BYM and taken care of that whole scholarship business. I'm going! It's final! In five days I will be wrapped up and that wonderful Quaker goodness! The workshops sound really interesting, though it's going to be hard for them to rival with last year's ( Read more... )

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My uncle Scott gave me my mother's camera! It's so odd to pick it up and look through that lense, realizing that she did the exact same thing not so long ago (in the large view of things ,anyway.) Helps give some perspective on life, you know? It's a nice camera, a rather old Pentax with the most beautiful zoom lense I've ever owned. It's in fairly ( Read more... )

( boredom )

"...bottles break, music plays, conversations competing for space, I look for a corner or a quieter room, there’s no heat in this house, I can’t breathe with these words in my mouth, but I’m not going to say them, yeah, I've made that mistake before ( Read more... )