This song is overplayed and I frankly am sick of it. I can't turn on the radio without hearing it.

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 I've been thinking about writing a really long, drawling entry about life lately, but I just don't feel like it. So I've decided to write about something else. Like people that I don't think I could go about daily life about. I know it's random, lol, but I always write about negative stuff and I've been thinking about everyone lately. So here we ( Read more... )

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I've decided to keep up with this music thing. So here's the first one, Matchbox Twenty- Long Day. It's probably my favorite song right now, because I can relate to it pretty well. The lyrics are so meaningful to me. 
"And I'm so terrified of no one else but me. I'm here all the time, I won't go away. Yeah, it's me. Well I can't get myself to go ( Read more... )

I've felt the hate rise up in me... 
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves... 
I wander over where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Dammit. I didn't sleep worth shit last night, I haven't been sleeping worth shit. I didn't make enough to survive on this week, guess I'm cashing in change or something. This is small, but Wes ( Read more... )

Blah. I don't know when to shut my mouth. I wish I could get over these stupid insecurities that I have, its ruining things... That's all I'm saying about that. I wrote an entry last night but apparently it didn't post. I really don't know what it said, so I'm just going on what's on my mind ( Read more... )

"Fuck it. I'll do it my way, and the people I love will understand why I did it that way because they love me."

I can't get to sleep. I think about the implications of diving in too deep, and possibly the complications. Especially at night, I worry over situations I know will be alright. Perhaps its just imagination. Day after day it reappears. And night after night my heartbeat shows the fear. Ghosts appear and fade away. Come back another day ( Read more... )

 *deletes music off iPod*

Since I have time, here's a random livejournal entry.

I went to HTI, the staffing company that Wes went to. I can't remember if I posted about it, but he got a full time job. I'm so happy for him, but it seems he's not as happy as I thought he was about it? I don't know what to do, he got really down. Explaining that, James ( Read more... )

Well, I ended up having a very bad series of panic attacks last night. Wes came straight from work and held be all night, I haven't gotten any sleep. I went to work and had to leave early because I was still panicking. I'm not looking forward to going in tomorrow and explaining that to my manager. Just saying. Other than that, I watched the first ( Read more... )

I think I'm a fairly strange person. I've gone all day, reeling endlessly from emotion to emotion, over and over and over. Happiness, sadness, anger, worry, jealousy... My head is really hurting right now. I'm staying positive, I know that whatever I may be thinking now won't be the same tomorrow. Everything is okay and its just my disorder that's ( Read more... )