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Last night was very odd to say the least
I found out something I didn't know was even close to happening
I'm still hurt, I'm still upset but somehow I feel better at the same time
I wish I knew earlier just for the sake of me not accusing anyone of anything or feeling betrayed even for a second
I don't feel that way anymore, I just overreacted but I just hate playing the fool
After all the talking he mentioned an ultimatum: we're either done or we're something more than what we are
he thinks the attempt to make the second option is futile because of the distance
so I told him if he wants to do as he will, he may, he's free, there's nothing stopping him
so that's when his words got all tangled up and we ended up concluding that I need to mature
I guess he really doesn't believe I wouldn't be sacrificing anything to have something more
how do I make him understand I don't need anyone else, I haven't for a while, I love him, I'd do anything for the kid
I may not be his on paper but I am, it's not unclear but that's how I feel
& I guess that goes both ways because even with his reassurance I don't feel like he is mine.
Time time time will only tell. Will it be over or will we think it over....
I just hope it isn't too little too late as it has been
I found out something I didn't know was even close to happening
I'm still hurt, I'm still upset but somehow I feel better at the same time
I wish I knew earlier just for the sake of me not accusing anyone of anything or feeling betrayed even for a second
I don't feel that way anymore, I just overreacted but I just hate playing the fool
After all the talking he mentioned an ultimatum: we're either done or we're something more than what we are
he thinks the attempt to make the second option is futile because of the distance
so I told him if he wants to do as he will, he may, he's free, there's nothing stopping him
so that's when his words got all tangled up and we ended up concluding that I need to mature
I guess he really doesn't believe I wouldn't be sacrificing anything to have something more
how do I make him understand I don't need anyone else, I haven't for a while, I love him, I'd do anything for the kid
I may not be his on paper but I am, it's not unclear but that's how I feel
& I guess that goes both ways because even with his reassurance I don't feel like he is mine.
Time time time will only tell. Will it be over or will we think it over....
I just hope it isn't too little too late as it has been