It's been so difficult to cope with so many things lately. There's been a lot of stressful events going on with my family that juggling everyone's been so hard. So now, I'm posting this entry to inform everyone that I may continue with my web hibernation. I have to fix my life and even if going online's been a good escape for me, it also serves as ( Read more... )

I have never posted a public entry for quite a while now for so many reasons. I bet, nobody would really care if I did. The few people that watch me have already moved on to other blog sites ( Read more... )

i haven't posted in a while, right? never knew that people actually look. oh well. i kinda found it hard to maintain this journal lately. dunno if i should continue keeping it anyway. i'd actually do well not looking back at all. then again, as always, i can't help it.

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alice nince

shiroi nemuri ni oitekarete fusaideiru koinu
mada ugokezu boku wa ( Read more... )

after all this time, i still can't look away now, can i?
you're becoming more radiant than before and even though i try to make my eyes leave you, i can't help but look back. aren't you still so beautiful?

you've grown weary, yes i see.
but your smile is still as sweet and terrifyingly addictive as the drug you were and will always be to me.

yes, i let ( Read more... )

I can't really say that I could still smile the same way I used to once before yet I cannot deny us both the comforts of even the smallest smile.

I wonder why you'd ever consider even listening. In a few years or so, will we still be this way? Simply doing nothing despite the temptations to hold each other - afraid to go over the line that could ( Read more... )

To dream a dream that cannot be a dream.

I wonder if I'd dare continue dreaming.

To dream a dream that cannot be a dream.

I wonder if I'd still continue dreaming.

To dream a dream that cannot be a dream.

I wonder if I'd forever continue dreaming.

To dream a dream that cannot be a dream.

I wonder if I'm really dreaming.

To dream a dream that cannot be my ( Read more... )

you still deny me minutes of rest.

hn. don't you know how to keep me still? you know you can't. i never failed to make you bend with my will.

i know, things aren't placed exactly where they are. i'm not the one playing and you know that very well. when we started this fiasco, you told me to just ride it smoothly and i did.

and now what do you want?
my, my, dearest... aren't you a confusing woman?

didn't you make it awfully clear that it was just some game that you came up  with to make him ( Read more... )

Although things may have changed, I'm not completely sure that they truly did. A part of me wants to believe that I've done you good - even just this once.

I wish I did you right this time.

But even still... It wouldn't come as easy as I wanted it to be...

It would never be...

It had always been hard for me to be doing this. It always has.

I try to ( Read more... )

probably, you wouldn't even know or remember...

but i do...

i'd treasure that moment more than you could ever think i would despite the absence of your recognition. i don't mind it really, not at all.

just to be given the chance to hold you is enough - to see you, feel you and simply be.

angel, thank you for the memory...