You have to battle your loneliness Nicole because no one else can. I understand that loneliness is part of a man's life but it's up to you to choose happiness once in a while.
You know what, I spent my 22nd birthday crying. I haven't said this to anyone but Tets. I was thinking of how I "used" to know you guys and all the people I cared for and suddenly, it felt like everyone's a stranger to me now. I gave in to my loneliness because of my lack of relationship/friendship.
But I wake up the next day feeling so disappointed with myself. And I realized that life is too short to be wasted on loneliness.
It's okay to feel lonely/sentimental/emo/sad/whatever-you-may-call-it once in a while, but feeling lonely for over year is just...so not you. You are the most optimistic person that I know and I'm kinda surprised you are feeling this way.
You know what, I spent my 22nd birthday crying. Is it because we ditched your celebration? D: Meh. Meg, you. IDK, your moods, really. You suddenly turn pensive, and then later you're back on your feet. But that's you.
Anyway, you got a point. We don't have to dwell on too much negative thoughts because it would destroy us. And I'm not yet ready to be destroyed, so to speak. But but but, I don't think we became strangers, but you were probably overwhelmed by the strong memory rushes you've had? IDK, I'm guessing. Mehehehe. :D But really now, we need to meet up soon.
Is it because we ditched your celebration? Hmm, it's one of the many reasons I cried during my birthday. IDK I just felt like there's this big gap between us and I'm scared that as time went by we'll just be casual friends or worse, "acquaintances". But don't worry, I'm totally over it and I'm not holding anything against you guys. I'm just used to your presence during my birthday :)
I miss everyone and Nicole, we are just a text away.
I'm scared that as time went by we'll just be casual friends or worse, "acquaintances". That's a scary thought. D: It's like, no matter how much I try to be casual and assure you guys, and myself as well that this wouldn't happen, there's this possibility pa rin that things will end up that way. *hugs* Sorrrrrrry we weren't able to come. Next time kasi sa QC na lang. Muhahaha.
DNW. If ever that happens, we'll all get a knock on the head for being so forgetful. This is one of those reasons why I dislike Social Networking because it deprives us of the reason to meet up because we're all "virtually" friends naman eh. We take advantage of this and we overlook the most important things.
Hurrrr, love the booties on your post. Says a lot about you.
I always thought I was good with being on my own. I always felt like I was always just a bit outside of my circle of friends. Don't we all? I think everyone in the group (Obees) felt that at one point, as what had Meg earlier pointed out, and the problem is, we don't tell each other that. But the thing is, I think at least one member of our group of friends know, s/he just wouldn't say anything about it.
There was one time when I felt like I really had been too lonely and that everything was too much. I couldn't tell anyone in Obees about it. I kinda dropped some signals, just to gauge the reactions and you were always the first one to respond to my subtle SOS calls. That's where I realized that I have friends who can accept me for whatever I am, and whatever I turn out to be. And for that, I'll be forever grateful.
I do find some truth in Yoo Ah In's words, but I somehow find myself disagreeing. maybe he's just too wise for his age and i'm immature? muhahaha. My
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We've never really been the types to speak up. It's kind of bad but that's how we've been. It must be an inherent personality trait for me since I'm like that with other friends too.
*hugs you* Glad to know that I was able to help you somehow and I'll always be around to help. No matter how reserved and pull back you get you know I can read you like an open book. :)
I remember listening to this audiobook that mentions the idea of "existential aloneness" and that in the grand scheme of things you may be with the person you love but you will be alone... like we all just go through things alone but I guess loneliness is a different matter. People can be alone without feeling lonely. And that is what I have to work on.
*hugs glomps and clings* My writing about this means I'm slowly getting over it.
This may sound cheesy, but I guess silences are what make us friends. IDK, I kind of envy those people who can confide almost everything to their peers, but in retrospect, I think people do actually envy us because we can feel what the others are feeling even without some verbal communication. Some sort of intuition that only friends do have.
Born alone and bound to die alone is something I don't quite believe in. I don't think that if you were born alone, it doesn't necessarily follow that you'll die alone. What I do believe in is that we make it so--we reject any offers of company, any attachments for fear of pain and betrayals in the end. While it may be so, I can proudly and safely say that at least we weren't alone.
WHYYYYY are we talking about philosophy anyway? Hahahahaha.
No matter how reserved and pull back you get you know I can read you like an open book. :)THIS. I'm glad all my text messages weren't for nothing and I'm sorry if I couldn't do as much for you as you do to me, but I hope in time I'll be able to do things
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I lost my really long reply to a power outage. *____*
Okay where was I again?
I kind of envy those people who can confide almost everything to their peers
I envy them too tbh but that's starting to change. We really never were the type who told everyone, everything. That might be a bad or good thing. I'm not quite sure. But I want to rely on this intuition of just knowing when one of us is in trouble just by a few words/hints. I guess our friendship is built on that. :)
The general idea is actually that no one can "get inside your head" in that you experience everything alone. I've been guilty of pushing people away (even you my friends unwittingly) as a kind of defense mechanism and you can say I brought the loneliness onto myself.
While it may be so, I can proudly and safely say that at least we weren't alone.
But now yes I do know I'll never ever be lonely. :)
WHYYYYY are we talking about philosophy anyway? Hahahahaha.
Because of a certain demi-god we know and love. haha
I'm sorry if I couldn't do as much for you as you
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I think I read (maybe reblogged in Tumblr too hehe) something about loneliness being the human condition and really, I have to agree. Not that we should all be Debbie Downers but idk, in the end, we're really alone anyway so we have to accept that there'll be points when all we have is ourselves and we just have to take it and be comfortable with that.
I think a lot of people feel like you did/do after college. Myself, included. I mean, one minute you're always with the same people for 5 (or more) days in a week and then suddenly, no one. And even when you finally get coworkers, it's... different. This is a very depressing fact of life, it seems. But then again, you can choose to change that. At least you guys are kind of closer to each other geographically so maybe it doesn't have to be so lonely all the time♥
As I just mentioned to Apa, I really do think it is more about being comfortable with being alone rather than just pegging it as loneliness. It's kind of a challenge really. I guess it goes hand in hand with truly being comfortable with yourself.
It came and went really but since I've been alone a lot of times the loneliness just hit me hard really. I bet it's harder for you though being on the other side of the world but I do hope you are coping dear or better yet that you are happy. :)
how i wish i can convincingly tell you that everything's sunny & bright. i can only offer a big hug saying that you're not alone in that feeling of loneliness. lately... things have been weird & dark in my life. i've been fighting loneliness (darkness) since i was a kid. because of that, i have a hard time connecting with anyone. i guess this is my destiny. i try to make up by being good & treating others with respect but at the end of the day... i'm still alone. hihihihihi... i dont' know anymore. hihihihi... life can be weird. let's see how things will turn out for me. hihihihi... let's keep on fighting girl! aja aja! :)
you ah in has really grown up to be one fine man & actor. i saw him in sharp1 a few years back... he was soo young then. now... he's just oozing with so much sex appeal! XD
he was good in the other films & series but yai totally shone in skk!!!! it was there that i actually sat up & took notice of him. for some reason... he reminds me of so ji sub. i guess same eyes & intensity. hihihihi :)
i glad that feeling better. aja aja fighting! * hugs * :)
It's so disarming how good looking he is in SKK! I think someone else told me that he reminds her of So Ji Sub. And then the man (in real life) has such a good head on his soldiers. It's so hard not to take notice of him.
/hugs ♥ I don't know what to say because this is something we deal with ourselves ; ; even I myself didn't know what I did when I was feeling all alone..
But you should know that there's still people around you who can help you forget that loneliness a bit ^^
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You know what, I spent my 22nd birthday crying. I haven't said this to anyone but Tets. I was thinking of how I "used" to know you guys and all the people I cared for and suddenly, it felt like everyone's a stranger to me now. I gave in to my loneliness because of my lack of relationship/friendship.
But I wake up the next day feeling so disappointed with myself. And I realized that life is too short to be wasted on loneliness.
It's okay to feel lonely/sentimental/emo/sad/whatever-you-may-call-it once in a while, but feeling lonely for over year is just...so not you. You are the most optimistic person that I know and I'm kinda surprised you are feeling this way.
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Is it because we ditched your celebration? D: Meh. Meg, you. IDK, your moods, really. You suddenly turn pensive, and then later you're back on your feet. But that's you.
Anyway, you got a point. We don't have to dwell on too much negative thoughts because it would destroy us. And I'm not yet ready to be destroyed, so to speak. But but but, I don't think we became strangers, but you were probably overwhelmed by the strong memory rushes you've had? IDK, I'm guessing. Mehehehe. :D But really now, we need to meet up soon.
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I miss everyone and Nicole, we are just a text away.
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That's a scary thought. D: It's like, no matter how much I try to be casual and assure you guys, and myself as well that this wouldn't happen, there's this possibility pa rin that things will end up that way. *hugs* Sorrrrrrry we weren't able to come. Next time kasi sa QC na lang. Muhahaha.
DNW. If ever that happens, we'll all get a knock on the head for being so forgetful. This is one of those reasons why I dislike Social Networking because it deprives us of the reason to meet up because we're all "virtually" friends naman eh. We take advantage of this and we overlook the most important things.
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I always thought I was good with being on my own. I always felt like I was always just a bit outside of my circle of friends.
Don't we all? I think everyone in the group (Obees) felt that at one point, as what had Meg earlier pointed out, and the problem is, we don't tell each other that. But the thing is, I think at least one member of our group of friends know, s/he just wouldn't say anything about it.
There was one time when I felt like I really had been too lonely and that everything was too much. I couldn't tell anyone in Obees about it. I kinda dropped some signals, just to gauge the reactions and you were always the first one to respond to my subtle SOS calls. That's where I realized that I have friends who can accept me for whatever I am, and whatever I turn out to be. And for that, I'll be forever grateful.
I do find some truth in Yoo Ah In's words, but I somehow find myself disagreeing. maybe he's just too wise for his age and i'm immature? muhahaha. My ( ... )
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We've never really been the types to speak up. It's kind of bad but that's how we've been. It must be an inherent personality trait for me since I'm like that with other friends too.
*hugs you* Glad to know that I was able to help you somehow and I'll always be around to help. No matter how reserved and pull back you get you know I can read you like an open book. :)
I remember listening to this audiobook that mentions the idea of "existential aloneness" and that in the grand scheme of things you may be with the person you love but you will be alone... like we all just go through things alone but I guess loneliness is a different matter. People can be alone without feeling lonely. And that is what I have to work on.
*hugs glomps and clings* My writing about this means I'm slowly getting over it.
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Born alone and bound to die alone is something I don't quite believe in. I don't think that if you were born alone, it doesn't necessarily follow that you'll die alone. What I do believe in is that we make it so--we reject any offers of company, any attachments for fear of pain and betrayals in the end. While it may be so, I can proudly and safely say that at least we weren't alone.
WHYYYYY are we talking about philosophy anyway? Hahahahaha.
No matter how reserved and pull back you get you know I can read you like an open book. :)THIS. I'm glad all my text messages weren't for nothing and I'm sorry if I couldn't do as much for you as you do to me, but I hope in time I'll be able to do things ( ... )
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Okay where was I again?
I kind of envy those people who can confide almost everything to their peers
I envy them too tbh but that's starting to change. We really never were the type who told everyone, everything. That might be a bad or good thing. I'm not quite sure. But I want to rely on this intuition of just knowing when one of us is in trouble just by a few words/hints. I guess our friendship is built on that. :)
The general idea is actually that no one can "get inside your head" in that you experience everything alone. I've been guilty of pushing people away (even you my friends unwittingly) as a kind of defense mechanism and you can say I brought the loneliness onto myself.
While it may be so, I can proudly and safely say that at least we weren't alone.
But now yes I do know I'll never ever be lonely. :)
WHYYYYY are we talking about philosophy anyway? Hahahahaha.
Because of a certain demi-god we know and love. haha
I'm sorry if I couldn't do as much for you as you ( ... )
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I think a lot of people feel like you did/do after college. Myself, included. I mean, one minute you're always with the same people for 5 (or more) days in a week and then suddenly, no one. And even when you finally get coworkers, it's... different. This is a very depressing fact of life, it seems. But then again, you can choose to change that. At least you guys are kind of closer to each other geographically so maybe it doesn't have to be so lonely all the time♥
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It came and went really but since I've been alone a lot of times the loneliness just hit me hard really. I bet it's harder for you though being on the other side of the world but I do hope you are coping dear or better yet that you are happy. :)
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you ah in has really grown up to be one fine man & actor. i saw him in sharp1 a few years back... he was soo young then. now... he's just oozing with so much sex appeal! XD
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And yes let's just keep fighting our battles together that way we know we aren't alone. :) Not sure that made sense though. hehe
I haven't seen him in anything before SKK Scandal (totaly K-drama noob) so this is such a good way to start off my YAI fangirling.
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i glad that feeling better. aja aja fighting! * hugs * :)
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*glomps* I've missed you! Thanks!
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I don't know what to say because this is something we deal with ourselves ; ;
even I myself didn't know what I did when I was feeling all alone..
But you should know that there's still people around you who can help you forget that loneliness a bit ^^
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Don't worry dear I'm okay.
And yes I just seem to forget that sometimes. I know I should be bricked for that. hehe
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