went to a sleep clinic where i slept over night and they attached 14 electrode thingies all over me to monitor my sleep...apparantly i do not get stage 4 sleep....ever, which is what one actually needs to be rested. i have breathing problems every two minutes when im sleeping = why i wake up for what i thought was no apparant reason in the middle ( Read more... )

been having ridiculously violent and creepy dreams. lately: ive been tortured, ive stabbed my sister in the heart with a key and pushed her down some stairs. the torture was really rather unpleasant. my dreams are always intense though. hmmm, wierd...its probably the weed.

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i picked up Cody, my dog of 12.5 years, around his waist and fucked something up in his stomach, and some organ burst, and about 3 hours later we had to put him down because he was bleeding into his abdomin and probably wouldn't even make it through surgery. vet said probably was a tumour, and would have happened anyway, which is obviously of no ( Read more... )

i cant fucking stand it when my dad gets angry with me...it makes me want to die. it makes me hate myself and him so fucking much, it used to trigger cutting myself (when i was young and stupid, not that im not either of those things now....so younger and stupider). it makes my stomach churn, i bawl. fuckity fuck fuck fuck. all i did was ( Read more... )

i volunteered to present first in my class of like, 25. i did my hair all purdy, and because i was so nervous i sweat and my hair got gross and i was embarrased and i hate cog psych. on a brighter note, sweet haircut! on a bad note, uni bitch screwed me and is only admitting me into 4 yr gen psych until after this term...LIES!! on a good note, ( Read more... )

after my stats exam a few people from my class went out to get retarded. one of the girls, who is awesome, was detailing how people make retarded comments about her missing parts of two of her fingers, like "will they grow back? can you park in handicap spots? "etc...so i said "is it wrong that i like you MORE because you have LESS fingers?"...and ( Read more... )

i made a friend...so i'm not a total, complete, 100% antisocial freak! YES!!!

i actually just googled "how to be spontaneous ( Read more... )

i am in san francisco. i am loving life, and barely even notice my raw, pealing, broken skin caused by sunburn. there is spray painted directions to where you can find pot, and oh so many hippies. golden gate park was love at first sight. i will definitely be back.YYYYAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!