"The best way to get over someone is to get under someone else"
I don't think I'm quite there yet.
I have had two experiences this weekend/week so far that have boosted my self-esteem in regards to members of the opposite sex, but at the same time... I am clearly not over Dr. X just yet.
Experience 1: A New "Nick"
Melissa and I went to Ottawa on the weekend to have a girls weekend away. We stayed at Michelle's place and on the saturday night, went out to a house party of Michelle's friends. It wasn't too rockin' so we ended up leaving and going to a bar called "Hooleys". It was fun, good music, and I was a little buzzed from my like two drinks. Melissa and I were dancing like crazy girls and started dancing with this group of three guys (plaid shirt guy, stripey shirt guy and purple shirt guy). Anyways, purple shirt guy caught my eye and clearly liked me too.
We were both kinda shy, we didn't do crazy grinding or really much dancing at all. But he was interested and we made a little small talk on the dance floor (aka shouted at each other). Turns out his name is Trevor, he's from Brockville and now works in Ottawa. For the rest of LJ experience, I will refer to him as TFO (Trevor from Ottawa). He was pretty bummed I was from Toronto and leaving the next day. After some very forceful prodding from Michelle & Maurizio, I ended up going back to him right before we left and gave him my number (which he checked right away! haha). We ended up texting all night back and forth. TFO tried to get me to come to his place after I was already back at Michelles and in my PJs (heck no, I was tired and not esthetically prepared for a hook up!). But still, we added each other on FB and texted ALL the next day / on the way home (he ended up helping us find a pizza place in Brockville for dinner --- I knew there was a reason I met him!)
Basically, he'll probably turn into another Nick at the most. Another "safe guy". Someone who is far away and can't really hurt me because he's so far. But on the flip side, Ottawa is a heck of a lot closer than Perth. I don't know, maybe we'll delete each other off facebook after a month, but it was a HUGE ego booster. I was grinning ALL night / day because this cute guy actually was interested in me and I was interested back! That's the first time I have felt even the semblance of butterflies and it was nice because nothing really physical happened.
Experience 2: No Surprises Here!
I went out for dinner with Benson (haha Smokey Joe from now on) last night before my therapy session. It was great! Him and I get along super well, even though we're pretty much opposites (me - city girl, super analyzing everything, him - would live in a log cabin in the woods, super chill). I went to therapy and afterwords, I just wanted to chill with someone. Hugs and stuff. So I called Smokey Joe and went over to his place to watch a movie (The Other Guys). We watched half of it and took a break to have some tea and then he showed me all his new Judo moves. It was borderline romantic-y sexy with him flipping me around on his bed and stuff.
We watched the last bit of the movie and I snuggled up to him. When it was over, I told him I had to go home but he said he wanted to try one more Judo move because I was so light it was fun to practice on me. Anyways, just like a movie, he flips me onto his bed and proceeds to kiss me. I go with it and make out a little bit and then we pause and have a discussion.
Basically, he was saying how we always seem to end up making out when we're alone together (I don't think its always, but its like 85% of the time ha) and since we're both in the position to have a fun sexual relationship, why not? We obviously are attracted to each other and this is bound to happen eventually, etc etc. And logically, it makes total sense. But in my heart, I know I would get a little too attached to him and then what, he leaves to go on a guiding trip up north and I go off to england? I'll play it by ear, but I'm not too sure I can handle a friends with benefits situation right now.
Dr X and I are meeting next Sunday to have our "big talk". Everytime we kissed, I kept thinking of Dr. X. the WHOLE time. Clearly that means something. So maybe I just need friends and romance and flirting now a days. I'm not ready to jump into a physical relationship.
...But still, ego boosts!
I have had two experiences this weekend/week so far that have boosted my self-esteem in regards to members of the opposite sex, but at the same time... I am clearly not over Dr. X just yet.
Experience 1: A New "Nick"
Melissa and I went to Ottawa on the weekend to have a girls weekend away. We stayed at Michelle's place and on the saturday night, went out to a house party of Michelle's friends. It wasn't too rockin' so we ended up leaving and going to a bar called "Hooleys". It was fun, good music, and I was a little buzzed from my like two drinks. Melissa and I were dancing like crazy girls and started dancing with this group of three guys (plaid shirt guy, stripey shirt guy and purple shirt guy). Anyways, purple shirt guy caught my eye and clearly liked me too.
We were both kinda shy, we didn't do crazy grinding or really much dancing at all. But he was interested and we made a little small talk on the dance floor (aka shouted at each other). Turns out his name is Trevor, he's from Brockville and now works in Ottawa. For the rest of LJ experience, I will refer to him as TFO (Trevor from Ottawa). He was pretty bummed I was from Toronto and leaving the next day. After some very forceful prodding from Michelle & Maurizio, I ended up going back to him right before we left and gave him my number (which he checked right away! haha). We ended up texting all night back and forth. TFO tried to get me to come to his place after I was already back at Michelles and in my PJs (heck no, I was tired and not esthetically prepared for a hook up!). But still, we added each other on FB and texted ALL the next day / on the way home (he ended up helping us find a pizza place in Brockville for dinner --- I knew there was a reason I met him!)
Basically, he'll probably turn into another Nick at the most. Another "safe guy". Someone who is far away and can't really hurt me because he's so far. But on the flip side, Ottawa is a heck of a lot closer than Perth. I don't know, maybe we'll delete each other off facebook after a month, but it was a HUGE ego booster. I was grinning ALL night / day because this cute guy actually was interested in me and I was interested back! That's the first time I have felt even the semblance of butterflies and it was nice because nothing really physical happened.
Experience 2: No Surprises Here!
I went out for dinner with Benson (haha Smokey Joe from now on) last night before my therapy session. It was great! Him and I get along super well, even though we're pretty much opposites (me - city girl, super analyzing everything, him - would live in a log cabin in the woods, super chill). I went to therapy and afterwords, I just wanted to chill with someone. Hugs and stuff. So I called Smokey Joe and went over to his place to watch a movie (The Other Guys). We watched half of it and took a break to have some tea and then he showed me all his new Judo moves. It was borderline romantic-y sexy with him flipping me around on his bed and stuff.
We watched the last bit of the movie and I snuggled up to him. When it was over, I told him I had to go home but he said he wanted to try one more Judo move because I was so light it was fun to practice on me. Anyways, just like a movie, he flips me onto his bed and proceeds to kiss me. I go with it and make out a little bit and then we pause and have a discussion.
Basically, he was saying how we always seem to end up making out when we're alone together (I don't think its always, but its like 85% of the time ha) and since we're both in the position to have a fun sexual relationship, why not? We obviously are attracted to each other and this is bound to happen eventually, etc etc. And logically, it makes total sense. But in my heart, I know I would get a little too attached to him and then what, he leaves to go on a guiding trip up north and I go off to england? I'll play it by ear, but I'm not too sure I can handle a friends with benefits situation right now.
Dr X and I are meeting next Sunday to have our "big talk". Everytime we kissed, I kept thinking of Dr. X. the WHOLE time. Clearly that means something. So maybe I just need friends and romance and flirting now a days. I'm not ready to jump into a physical relationship.
...But still, ego boosts!