I had a rough Thursday and Friday, so far. Well it's been a 50/50 mix i suppose. Wednesday after work i went down to Lowell to see Timmy. And that was a good night. The next morning on my way back to work I was speeding through 93, hitting 100mph at some points and keeping my watchful eye out as always. But I faltered and got pulled over doing ( Read more... )

I feel a lot more motivated!
I hate my house and can't wait to move out, seriously thinking about kicking out the girl that's subletting from me.
I am getting better at telling you how I feel.

I've been making fascinating discoveries recently. These little idiosyncrosies (I can't yet decided if they are flaws--an explanation will follow) have been brought to my attention, through my own mind's work. Ideas and thought have been coming to me when I'm high and meditating simultaneously. The last few days I've been smoking by myself and ( Read more... )

I will be 20 years old this Friday, and I'm not happy about it at all. Twenty sounds old. I WON'T BE A TEENAGER ANYMORE!! I don't want to get any older. I don't care about turning 21, I don't want to be 25 and think Shit, I'm almost 30Then you're 28,29 and it's all over. Time flies, it warps ( Read more... )

I'm at work right now. I have been here for 4 hours and I have not done anything that relates to work. I have been touching up on my spanish and now im eating meatballs. I have nothing to do and it's Monday. Last week was worse. My boss was on vacation so I had no boudaries. All i did was take a bunch of adderall and piss away my time, bored ( Read more... )

I am living in Madbury, renting a house with 4 girls from UNH, and 2 additional roommates who are crashing there. 7 people in one house, its like the real world but with more drugs. The other night I watched my roommate drink a few beers, take a stacker pill, snort Mollie, and then take a methadone pill when she got home. She is depressed and so ( Read more... )

Here I am again. Lost in the world, and using livejournal for clarity ( Read more... )

I got my head but my head is unraveling ( Read more... )

It's working! It's working!

I'm starting to
not
care what anyone else thinks about me.

Sweeet.

I have go hang out with an ex hookup! I dont even really like him! I'm blazed and extremely anxious! And so hungry. soooo hunnngrrrrrryyyyy.

I'm also feeling cold with like 4 layers on. I don't get why I'm always coooolllld.