drowned

[txilar]

it’s like i’m floating away

i want to float away

an aimless balloon in the sky

floating

i can’t breathe, i’m drowning, i should be drowning, i could drown,

i want to drown(i do not want to die

Comments

[illereyn]

I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I could take your pain away. *hugs*

[txilar]

thank you.

i try to imagine the pain as payment for the wonderful life but that seems terrible so perhaps the wonderful life was recompense for the pain? idk. for a moment the sea of sorrow is calm, like i've forgotten for just a moment, and then upon recollection, there is a terrible storm of agony and loss all over again.

i just feel so helpless. but thank you. really. every thought helps.