One of the worst days in your life... meet one of the best days you've had in a long while.  Back-to-back.

...my brain doesn't know how to handle the cognitive dissonance.
I think it's taken a vacation, possibly with the intent not to come back.

"Lucky in Cards, Unlucky in Love."

...DAMN, I'm good at Poker!

- Kas.

"We do not see the world as it is. We see it as we are."
"We do not see the world as it is. We see it as we are."
"We do not see the world as it is. We see it as we are."

*sigh* Someday I'll learn to take my own advice.

Cathexis: In psychoanalysis, cathexis is defined as the process of investment of mental or emotional energy in a person, object, or idea ( Read more... )

I've fucked up in plenty of ways in the past.
I'm not sure if I've ever felt shame before.

Always good to learn something new! *facedesk*

I feel like I've finally accepted defeat, but have been fighting for so long that I can't bring myself to surrender.

"We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time."
- T.S. Eliot.

I hope your home, wherever/whatever/whoever that may be, finds you well.

- Kas.

The difference between a stereotypical nerd and a goth... both had awkward, painful, alienated childhoods where most forms of fulfilling romantic interaction was denied to them. At a certain point, those that would become goths discovered that other nerds would have sex with them ( Read more... )

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It has been 6 months since I cut my Ex out of my life entirely and since then I have avoided using LJ for a multitude of reasons, none of them decent. For a very long period of time, it was the sole means by which we could keep track of each other's lives. LJ and Eliška became somewhat synonymous in my mind. I found it difficult to emotionally ( Read more... )