such an odd week... family craziness... "relationship" craziness all around.... old michele wrote me a letter that i received yesterday.... it was so unlike michele... so apologetic and responsible and mature.... it was like a different person... i called her shortly after i read the letter... it was the type of letter that deserved an immediate ( Read more... )

we don't understand each other... i tried to explain... i tried several times to explain... if you don't get it... what can i do?
i'm not going to read it anymore...
don't take it personally... i just don't want to read about myself anymore...

"The night sets softly ( Read more... )

well, how long did it last? i don't even know... the last couple of months are a whirlwind of vascillating emotions and thoughts.... tried to do everything right... failed again ( Read more... )

flying frozen heart boy.... flying over the family.... josh is definitely there and an unknown (as of yet) man that greg tries to figure out... who is this man? a future relative.... maybe he's having a premonition of some sort.... he does plan on going to the wedding.... mike's wedding..... the one thing i don't think i want to do.... i don't ( Read more... )

what the fuck... don't know... it gets so damn hot... what's the fucking problem? not sure what's wrong with me, but if this can work as just sex.... i will be fucking amazed.... i am too tired and mentally worn out to think of non-curse words to describe what is happening right now ( Read more... )

been having a few of those anxiety attack type moments lately.... they're very quick though.... not as long lasting as they used to be... which is good... but they still really suck ( Read more... )

Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com) GEMINI - Thursday, September 11, 2003 ( Read more... )

the new skin.... livejournal's new look... it's a bit bizarre... but whatever ( Read more... )

grief is what i'm getting right now... but it's okay... i like her.... she can give me a bit of grief.... i think about her a lot and i think about holding her and just being with her... and fuck the world....
i need sleep.... wish she was here...