how should i do this? i need to find the write words to explain it all.. but i'm so lost and out of it.
i just want.. something so simple that would mean so much to me. maybe.. we're just not ready.
it's either we get to working or we give up.

now.. let me break down.

again.

been a tough tough week. ohh yeah..
now i must figure out how to deal with certain things..
i feel so lost.. hmm.
i dunno what's happening anymore.
thank you, m'whore for helping me get through this and understanding..
new discoveries, whoa like, i'm shocked. now, how do i open you up?
other than that, went to a party yesterday all the way in ( Read more... )

well.. polo and i are okay now. =) yessssirrr! now i can be in peace.
yet, something still bothers me but.. i'm clear about everything now.
just move on and ignore it.. even if it takes forever.
it just sucks that it was all an illusion.
you know what i'm talking about.

guess things can't stay the same. 
especially the most precious ones.. 
this is what ( Read more... )

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what ( Read more... )

So.. I guess making the first move to solve it wasn't good since.. not much of a difference happened. He just ignores me from time to time.. 
Should I apologize again? I would even if my pride will keep me from doing it.

Little misundertandings and assumptions..  I'm so good at them. That's why I mess up everytime.

ANYWAYS..

I got my marks for the ( Read more... )

4 days.. how can I last this long? I realize I am fading.. these stupid visions are killing me.

We got the yearbook. AND FUCK! My pic should burn and die.. I hate it. So much people teasing me about it... 
Ugh and what's worst is that.. T.T;
And no donna, we still are not..

This sucks.. like SHIT.

You must not know about me.. (8)

Dude, I suckkk! I'm here cleaning.. well I'm supposed to be. But I just watched them do it. I feel so lazy. Instead I found my old book. It's a bible story picture book. And I read it. XD I feel so HOLY! Even if I didn't pitch in to do anything. Eww! I'm such a disgrace. Anyways.. yeah.. fam left the house to me so yeahhhh peace and freedommm ( Read more... )

Stupid dance.. and stupid plans..
What am I to you? 
I might be overexaggerating but WHATEVER..
I.. am trying.

(8) It never really mattered too much to me that you are just too darn dull for me..

What a stupid day.. really. It's the only day I have a break and it's all ruined. I'd do anything to get out of this place.. It's hell..
Now.. I will go in silence.. but yet it's not what they want. What, do they want me to scream and yell again? WTF THEN! Shut up!

No one has any idea..

..how must I face everything when i am so broken?

It's raining again! Well um, today was weird.. in that fun kind of way? In math class, my chicken soup buddy aka locker buddy and science buddy kicked me. =O Yeah man, after all the stuff I did.. like telling you how to get better so you won't be sick.. (including other stuff like poking you, writing on you, and hitting you.) Goshh! =P Civics was ( Read more... )