WARNING: Random Thoughts Ahead(long post)
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A couple of million thoughts are running through my head at the moment. I liken them to the couple million lines of code stored in my computer, but unfortunately for me, Bruiser (my computer) is better equipped to handle that than I am. So forgive me if coherent thoughts don't flow, but the system is lagged down and running kind of buggy.
I've been recently given a look at my own life from the outside in and I don't quite know what to think of it all. I am sure that my ministry needs MUCH work, as there is really only one person who I have been witnessing to. Dalgliesh's sermon this morning was good for me to hear because up until it I still felt bad about all the time I've essentially wasted not spreading the gospel. But now I have a clearer understanding that my reward is not changed because of lack of time spent serving. Thank you God for saying that through Ryan.
I love Norton Internet Security 2005. I love technology in general, and there are so many things that I want to learn and do, but I just have a hard time finding the time to devote to those things. I hate that I have to work inside of time. If time were never a problem, I could get so many things done.
I miss Sarah. Even though we still live in the same city, we have to force ourselves to make time to spend with one another. I despise doing that. I long for the days when we could just veg out, and do whatever we wanted to do with the whole day. I'm not looking forward to going home due to the separation that I will have from her. I'm not looking forward to a 2 year engagement. But I keep having to be reminded that all these things serve a purpose and they wouldn't be happening if God didn't want them to. I just want to go home to her at the end of the day. Last night, we left the banquet and we got back to her house we sat on the couch to rest and I started falling asleep. I just so badly wanted to fall asleep with her in my arms, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. So I angered myself and told her good night. Got back to my place and nearly fell asleep on the couch so I went to bed after talking to Sean for a while.
Sean's a great roommate.
I love this music. It's the song East Hastings from the 28 Days Later soundtrack. It's so cool. But now it's ending, but since I'm listening through Music Match, the entire CD will play again.
I wish I had a million dollars. That way I could get Sarah the ring she truly deserves instead of the one I can afford to get her. I could also then afford the rest of our Arizona trip. The airline tickets are paid for, but I still need to set aside $80 for Gas to get to San Angelo to pick her up and take her back to San Antonio, and then after the trip take her back to San Angelo and get me back to San Antonio. I don't know how I'm ever going to visit during the summer. And then I still have to figure out how I'm paying for summer school. I hate school with all the fire that is within me. If my passion were rated as a fire, the passion that I have for hating school could burn down all of the Amazon.
I'm not quite sure what to talk about next, but I know that I'm not done talking. AS I said the system is lagging and is running kind of buggy. I need to finish my laundry that I started a week ago because I have no clean black shirts remaining. I want to watch a movie with knights and dragons. I want to watch Dragonheart. I still need to watch Braveheart.
I don't quite know how to deal with Sarah's mother. She has all these preconceived notions about men and I can't convince her otherwise. I've been the exception to every rule I've ever heard in my life. So she'll make a general statement about males and if I try to rebuke it, it feels like I'm just trying to pick a fight. Rex taught out of Song of Solomon this morning and hit the point that guys have to have parental permission before asking a girl to marry her. I'm not sure if I have to have her mother's permission as well or just her father's. I'd be afraid that her mother would say no and her father is going to give me a yes without too much thought. I should not resent her mother and her mother says that she doesn't want to do anything that would make me resentful of her. And I tell her that it doesn't want matter what she wants me to do, I'm going to do it even if I hate it, because I must submit to her will. She and Mr. Thompson are still the governing head over Sarah. I think Mrs. Thompson doesn't like it when I say that. But I can't say anything else because anything else would be a lie.
Any girl ever wanna make a guy totally submissive to her or her parents. . . . . . . . . . . . .just have him be in love you. It'll make him more submissive than you're suppose to be to your husband.
I want the Harry Potter Soundtracks, does that make me gay?
I've only been typing at this thing for 9 minutes and it feels like an hour.
Still don't know what I'm doing for Sarah for Valentine's day this year. It has to be cheap.
Speaking of cheap here's something that's not, Sarah got into another accident Friday night. Front right quarter of her car nailed a suburban. I know from first hand experience what it's like hitting a suburban. They are very unforgiving. But hopefully it will just be body damage which I think I can fix. She's taking it to the mechanic sometime next week. Hopefully there's nothing broken mechanically and I can then just bend her car back into shape and install a new headlight housing. She and the people in the suburban were all ok.
I think I want to download Firefox and give it a try. But I'm so clueless on other browsers (here's where Kyle laughs at me). I can have more than one browser installed at a time, right? They're both just programs, right?
I have things I need to be doing and I'm putting them off. I'll get to them soon.
I care about your friends page unlike Roy who posts copious amounts of pictures!!!!
J/K <3
A couple of million thoughts are running through my head at the moment. I liken them to the couple million lines of code stored in my computer, but unfortunately for me, Bruiser (my computer) is better equipped to handle that than I am. So forgive me if coherent thoughts don't flow, but the system is lagged down and running kind of buggy.
I've been recently given a look at my own life from the outside in and I don't quite know what to think of it all. I am sure that my ministry needs MUCH work, as there is really only one person who I have been witnessing to. Dalgliesh's sermon this morning was good for me to hear because up until it I still felt bad about all the time I've essentially wasted not spreading the gospel. But now I have a clearer understanding that my reward is not changed because of lack of time spent serving. Thank you God for saying that through Ryan.
I love Norton Internet Security 2005. I love technology in general, and there are so many things that I want to learn and do, but I just have a hard time finding the time to devote to those things. I hate that I have to work inside of time. If time were never a problem, I could get so many things done.
I miss Sarah. Even though we still live in the same city, we have to force ourselves to make time to spend with one another. I despise doing that. I long for the days when we could just veg out, and do whatever we wanted to do with the whole day. I'm not looking forward to going home due to the separation that I will have from her. I'm not looking forward to a 2 year engagement. But I keep having to be reminded that all these things serve a purpose and they wouldn't be happening if God didn't want them to. I just want to go home to her at the end of the day. Last night, we left the banquet and we got back to her house we sat on the couch to rest and I started falling asleep. I just so badly wanted to fall asleep with her in my arms, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. So I angered myself and told her good night. Got back to my place and nearly fell asleep on the couch so I went to bed after talking to Sean for a while.
Sean's a great roommate.
I love this music. It's the song East Hastings from the 28 Days Later soundtrack. It's so cool. But now it's ending, but since I'm listening through Music Match, the entire CD will play again.
I wish I had a million dollars. That way I could get Sarah the ring she truly deserves instead of the one I can afford to get her. I could also then afford the rest of our Arizona trip. The airline tickets are paid for, but I still need to set aside $80 for Gas to get to San Angelo to pick her up and take her back to San Antonio, and then after the trip take her back to San Angelo and get me back to San Antonio. I don't know how I'm ever going to visit during the summer. And then I still have to figure out how I'm paying for summer school. I hate school with all the fire that is within me. If my passion were rated as a fire, the passion that I have for hating school could burn down all of the Amazon.
I'm not quite sure what to talk about next, but I know that I'm not done talking. AS I said the system is lagging and is running kind of buggy. I need to finish my laundry that I started a week ago because I have no clean black shirts remaining. I want to watch a movie with knights and dragons. I want to watch Dragonheart. I still need to watch Braveheart.
I don't quite know how to deal with Sarah's mother. She has all these preconceived notions about men and I can't convince her otherwise. I've been the exception to every rule I've ever heard in my life. So she'll make a general statement about males and if I try to rebuke it, it feels like I'm just trying to pick a fight. Rex taught out of Song of Solomon this morning and hit the point that guys have to have parental permission before asking a girl to marry her. I'm not sure if I have to have her mother's permission as well or just her father's. I'd be afraid that her mother would say no and her father is going to give me a yes without too much thought. I should not resent her mother and her mother says that she doesn't want to do anything that would make me resentful of her. And I tell her that it doesn't want matter what she wants me to do, I'm going to do it even if I hate it, because I must submit to her will. She and Mr. Thompson are still the governing head over Sarah. I think Mrs. Thompson doesn't like it when I say that. But I can't say anything else because anything else would be a lie.
Any girl ever wanna make a guy totally submissive to her or her parents. . . . . . . . . . . . .just have him be in love you. It'll make him more submissive than you're suppose to be to your husband.
I want the Harry Potter Soundtracks, does that make me gay?
I've only been typing at this thing for 9 minutes and it feels like an hour.
Still don't know what I'm doing for Sarah for Valentine's day this year. It has to be cheap.
Speaking of cheap here's something that's not, Sarah got into another accident Friday night. Front right quarter of her car nailed a suburban. I know from first hand experience what it's like hitting a suburban. They are very unforgiving. But hopefully it will just be body damage which I think I can fix. She's taking it to the mechanic sometime next week. Hopefully there's nothing broken mechanically and I can then just bend her car back into shape and install a new headlight housing. She and the people in the suburban were all ok.
I think I want to download Firefox and give it a try. But I'm so clueless on other browsers (here's where Kyle laughs at me). I can have more than one browser installed at a time, right? They're both just programs, right?
I have things I need to be doing and I'm putting them off. I'll get to them soon.
I care about your friends page unlike Roy who posts copious amounts of pictures!!!!
J/K <3