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[tyvoq]

In looking back at my past... I realize that for the majority, I have been an observer of my life, not a participant. When I talk to Misty and her family, they all have personal stories to tell. They all start out, "Remember the time we...", or "Remember when I..." All of my stories start out, "I was there when...," or "I know someone who

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[dreamyd]

I don't think thats completely true. Im sure youve done alot. The way you described yourlife, is as if you are reading a great book. Becareful what you wish for, because I once said those exact words. "I have no stories to tell, nothing ever happens to me" Now things don't EVER stop. *hits head* Anyway, Im sure you'll live, and you have lived already!! But I know the feeling.

[tyvoq]

It's not that nothing ever happens to me. Pleanty of stuff happens to me. It's just that I've never done anything. I've just watched other people do stuff. I've been the fly on the wall all my life. Sure... things do happen. I meet interesting people. I moved out of my house. But all these things are just situations, not really events. I didn't do them. They just happened, and I didn't object.

[tyvoq]

PS - The 'reading a great book' analogy is dead on. It's like I'm reading my life instead of living it.

just some words of advice....

[opiejuan]

you don't HAVE a soul - you ARE a soul. you're not standing outside looking at it - the image you have of yourself is only that: an image. you are real, not that image. abandon it.

there's nothing wrong with observing - just be where you're observing, rather than lost in the thoughts about what it is you're looking at. the more you think about words and thoughts about a situation, the more of the situation you miss.

Buddha taught that all suffering is desire - this has been translated in many ways to mean "attachment". i think of this because you only remember the feelings attached to a moment in your past. honestly, i only see this tying you to your past, which will, if left unchecked, keep you from thinking about the present (and not do much else for you - nothing good, anyway). you are not the person you were then. you are who you are now. abandon your attachment and "be here now."