Wow, unexpected to say the least.
A bit unpleasant, but whatever must be
must be
must be.

I remember
driving down the road in
a large
and old
ford truck
I was explaining to you
I couldnt stay us
with the thought of
another man's Penis inside
you
I hung up
cried
and drank
until I fell asleep
next to the tracks
I expected to share
with you

I am in a chaotic whirlpool of 'artistic' expression.
I have about 7 projects started
and I will probably complete none of them.

In the battle
between entropy
and it's
reverse.
If the latter
were to win
how would it feel
to implode
into explosion?

[Much like love, I think.]

I am going to Fort Hood, Texas.

There is something growing
inside of my chest
that always before
I have cut out with the sharpest
knife
I could find.
I have left years of scar tissue
but now...
I am not cutting it out
I am not removing it
and the scars
are melting
and the feeling is not
not not not
entirely comfortable

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I have made the most awesome mix CD ever.
I feel like John Cusack.
If anyone is interested I will post the full list in all it's awesomeness.
but, no one is.

much love

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She is here
and it is the most wonderful experience of my life
she is here
and time is flowing slowly
she is here
and my face is cramping from unaccustomed smiling
she is here
and won't shut up
and that is wonderful
she is here
and I feel loved
she is here
and I feel needed
she is here
and there is blood on my sheets
and that is wonderful