It's been ages since I've posted anything.

Why is it that when the world finally decides to lurch out of a decade-old holding pattern, it really lets fly?

I CANNOT KEEP UP WITH THIS BUT I AM GOING TO KEEP TRYING.

This is what it means to survive shit: distinction becomes difficult. A threat is a threat is a threat. I wish I could sleep.

Today is really hard.

Dear Self ( Read more... )

Nights are the hardest.
Then the days.

I'm actually doing pretty well.
It's the drive-by moments of sheer torture that you can't ever anticipate that really rip me up right now.

So, here's all my love for all the other lonely people.
It might be coming from a kind of tattered place right now, but it's still good stuff.

That 's the other thing I mean to tell everyone.
I'm really bad at being there right now.
And I know it.
And I'm sorry.

I've been bad at it for a little while I think.

I"ll do better soon.
So much better.

Every time I start to update I end up with a private entry ( Read more... )

They say knowledge is power ( Read more... )

sniff, lj, i think i missed you.