LAYER ONE: On The Outside ( Read more... )

um. yeah... so yeah.. um... eh... hm. ugh yeah.. mmhmmm.. ok off to the shower

so a year ago today was the day i said i had enough. tried to off myself but i was to fucked up to even slit my wrist with the right side of the blad. quickly after checked into a drug/rehab center. havent stayed drug/alchol free. only coke i did was when some people did some in my car and left a dirty cd case so when no one was around i licked it ( Read more... )

im not sure what i feel today. im really tired work blew ass. maybe its time for me to find a creative outlet for pent up frustration and anger I.E. music.. who knows. sometimes i feel so discontent and so far away from everyone. of course ill get asked about what this means tonight if its seen or tommorow night. i just feel so lost and lonely ( Read more... )

oh fuck i hate holidays.. not to mention the amount of anger/hate i have for some people grows more and more each day. i wish it was easier to commit the perfect crime and not get caught but like that will happen. so for now ill continue to punish myself and listen to some good ole kansas hardcore

anyone know whats it like wanting to gut someone you dont know just because they piss you off????

fuck lazy ass people who dont know how to cook a fucking turkey jesus christ. oh yeah work sucks balls now im dead tired feel like... fuck i dont know... anyway im off to get the only thing that really matters to me. she's at work. bye

listening to dystopia is always fun considering they have a whole album about nothing but songs about suicide. that shit is funny. so i got tired of being left out and about and decided fuck it ill do my own thing and i will most likely piss some people off but at this point i really dont care. the frusteration level is very high along with the ( Read more... )