How did this thing work again...?
I haven't updated my blog for the past six years, so this feels a bit weird.
I realized, reading old entries, that even back when I was more active here, I was already complaining about twitter and tumblr killing my blog (as in, I spent all my time there and barely updated here). So ofc, it came the day when I didn't update anymore. And damn, I miss it. And I miss having a place where I can have all my thoughts easily accesible for the future. Reading some old entries was quite the trip...
This will probably be my only entry after all these years and then I'll disappear again, I know myself. But I don't know, it just felt like the right thing to give this place a chance again. I wish I could just delete twitter and come back here for good, but that's not happening lmao.
(And it's not just social media's fault! Even if I didn't have twitter, I know I'd find other things to spend my time with, like all the crafting and DIY I never have time to do ;_; )
Anyway. My life is a mess. I don't have my own place to live (been living at some friends' place for over a year because renting a flat would take more than half of my monthly salary, even for the shittiest, cheapest place...); my mental health has been going downhill for the past months and I can't talk about it with anyone (that is, anyone that won't charge 60€/h to listen!); and my general health isn't the best either, but at least it's better than it was ten years ago, so there goes something. Yay.
Today I will play a TTRPG again after years of not having anyone to play with. And I'm freaking nervous aaaaaaa. Because it's with a bunch of strangers, with a bunch of new rules I don't really understand (I still don't accept VtM V5), and playing a character I'm not sure whether I'll connect with or not... I hope at least it won't be too long!
Also, I'm not mentally ready to start event season again. Next week we'll be in Madrid for the first convention of the year, and I swear I'm not ready at all for the trips and the hotel stays again xD I'm already missing my bed and we're not gone yet!
Anyways. Let's see if I can get up from this chair and do something productive on this cold Sunday before it's time to leave the house for the RP session 💪
I realized, reading old entries, that even back when I was more active here, I was already complaining about twitter and tumblr killing my blog (as in, I spent all my time there and barely updated here). So ofc, it came the day when I didn't update anymore. And damn, I miss it. And I miss having a place where I can have all my thoughts easily accesible for the future. Reading some old entries was quite the trip...
This will probably be my only entry after all these years and then I'll disappear again, I know myself. But I don't know, it just felt like the right thing to give this place a chance again. I wish I could just delete twitter and come back here for good, but that's not happening lmao.
(And it's not just social media's fault! Even if I didn't have twitter, I know I'd find other things to spend my time with, like all the crafting and DIY I never have time to do ;_; )
Anyway. My life is a mess. I don't have my own place to live (been living at some friends' place for over a year because renting a flat would take more than half of my monthly salary, even for the shittiest, cheapest place...); my mental health has been going downhill for the past months and I can't talk about it with anyone (that is, anyone that won't charge 60€/h to listen!); and my general health isn't the best either, but at least it's better than it was ten years ago, so there goes something. Yay.
Today I will play a TTRPG again after years of not having anyone to play with. And I'm freaking nervous aaaaaaa. Because it's with a bunch of strangers, with a bunch of new rules I don't really understand (I still don't accept VtM V5), and playing a character I'm not sure whether I'll connect with or not... I hope at least it won't be too long!
Also, I'm not mentally ready to start event season again. Next week we'll be in Madrid for the first convention of the year, and I swear I'm not ready at all for the trips and the hotel stays again xD I'm already missing my bed and we're not gone yet!
Anyways. Let's see if I can get up from this chair and do something productive on this cold Sunday before it's time to leave the house for the RP session 💪