Don't fly away my little angel ~oneshot~ {Reituki fanfic} PG
Title: Don't fly away my little angel...
Author: UeLuwsAkiraRei
Chapter(s): oneshot
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance, drama, school
Warnings: Bad english, bully Reita, Ruki wants to kill himself, bullying.
Pairings: Reita x Ruki; Ruki x Reita.
Summary: I love him, but I hurt him. Why? Because I am stupid.
Comments: I don't know if this fic is good. I just wanted to write something about this problem. I am bullied at school by some guys at the momment. They call me ugly, sorty etc. and there is always time when you want to run away from it and just end your life.
Everything is written in Reita's Pov. Diffrent srift is his mind talking *that sounds weird lol*
Well, enjoy. Comments are welcomed with hug :))
"Oi, Chibi!"
I am doing it again, huh...?
He just looks at me with those big eyes of his. Those eyes, that I love so much... Those eyes, which looks at me with so much fear.
"W-what d-do you want...?" was his small question.
Nothing, just to be with you...
"Guess what, chibi fag, I just wanted to tell you, that your bag is on this school roof..." I smirk with that evil smile of mine "if you want to get it, you should go now. You are one of those geeks, so hurry up, bell is going to ring soon."
Why can I shut up?
He just look at me with blank expression. Silence. Just stare. His eyes in panic, I see how he want to cry, but I am here.So he can't.Not in front of me. If I were his friend, that Yutaka guy, he would cry.. No. Yutaka never ever made Taka cry. Takanori always happy with him. I hate Yutaka because he always get those beautiful smiles that Taka give to him. Lucky bastard.
But... I am happy, that Takanori is happy and he can forget my cruel words with that friend of his.
Takanori know and I know myself, that if he's going to cry, I am going to make fun of him. Again...
Silence finally brokes up from little whisper.
"On...on the ro-roof..?" then he chokes on his own words.
Takanori...I...
"Yeah, just go there." I answer coldly and walk away. I hear small, quick steps echoing in hall. He runned away...
It had been two years since I bully Takanori. It hurts so much to see him cry every day like this because of me. It makes me want to cry.
I am monster, I know. But I don't know how to make him think about me. It's the only way I know.
It's sick.
Seventeen year boys usually loves girls, like that with short skirt, who looks at me with her bitchy eyes, which I don't care.
Everything is in my head, about Takanori. I know, that he would never look at me, or talk to me. I am just punk with blond hair and noseband. I can't even learn math or have wonderful grades like Takanori does. We are from two diffrent worlds. How I wish that would change...
I call him fag, gay... All those words that I call myself when I am alone and thinking of him.
I call him chibi and small ant...Although I love it, that he's small like that. It makes him look so cute...
I say alot of things.
I say that he's like an girl, that his make up and clothes suckish and... I hurt him every day so badly...
I never felt that those words were true.
What kind of person I am, that I talk to my love like that? If someone ever touch Takanori, I would kill him...
Guess only nosebanded freak, can hurt Takanori huh...?
I stop my legs from walking.I look through the hall window.
I remember how we met in this hall. It was suckish week to me. Alot of tests which I am failed anyway. We were only fifteen, he accidentelly bumped into me. I looked at him like he was some kind of alien, or trash that dirt me. But he just bowed polytely and say "I am very sorry".
Since that day I started to notice him more. Started to stalk him. When I knew about him more, I started to bully him. Because this kind of beautiful, artistic and angelic person, would never look at someone like me.
How I fell in love with him? Oh, the answer is simple. From the first time I met him, I already liked him. I just couldn't admit it. But when I heard him singing... I don't know what kind of song it was... But lyrics, there were so sad. It was something about the flowers.
Hmmm... If I ask him, would he sing to me?
Stupid thoughts...
But think about it Suzuki. Spring is love time ne? Why shouldn't you confess to Taka?
No. I can't. It's just...
And then my thoughts were cut of by girls scream. Loud and scared one.
It kind of annoyed me. No one can cut my thoughts, when I thinking of Taka... God I am so gay.
I look around and search for that girl, that screamed so loudly.
Then I saw it.
Little girl, all shaking and crying runs through the hall from school yard.
I grab her by hand..Her eyes looks scared like hell.
"What's the metter?"
She wants to run away, but I don't let her. I am too strong for her.
Oh, I remember, she's one year younger then I and Taka are... On Valentines day, she gave Taka chocolade.
My eyes narroved at the memorie.
"What's the metter?" I repeat question in more cold tone.
Girl hesitate a little, but just looking at angry and cold me, everyone start to talk.
"Suzuki-senpai..." she starts" Matsumoto-senpai is..."
Takanori...?
"What's with Takanori?" my heart start beating faster.
"Matsumoto-senpai is on the schools roof!" she sniffs.
"So? I send him there?" why do you need to cry? pff.
Girls eyes widens and more tears start to flow.
"You did this to him???!!!" she looked so angry, I jerked away a little.
"What are you talking women?" I don't understand.
She slaps me. Damn, it hurts...
"Takanori~senpai is going to jump!! It's all YOUR FOULT!!! You stupid asshole!!"
Wha...t...?
I set girls hand free and start to think...
So, he's going to end this life...? Because of...
I start to run.
I hear girls voice all around the school, but I don't care about her. My love is going to die because of me, if I don't hurry.
It's your foult you damned nosebanded punk.
I run up to the last floor, all sweaty and tired. Why in the hell, school has six floors? I look around, search for doors. When I found it, I try to open it, but God hates me and he helped Takanori find the key and locked himself there.
That baka...
I bang doors and shout his name, to open it. But nothing happens. I just hear teachers and students shouting for him to set on the ground. What a stupid kid, I never told him to go and kill himself...
"Why are you doing this Takanori, we can help you! There is no need in such an action!" I heard some teacher shouting.
"No one ever helped me, when there was a problem... Now, I will change it..."
His small and sad voice broke me into pieces. My eyes started to get watery. God, he make me emotional.
I start to bang doors with my legs, fists and all other organs just to open them. If someone saw me at that moment, I looked like crazy.
But I couldn't stop anymore.
There is no time to think. Takanori is going to jump any momment.
My hands and legs hurts. Stupid doors. There is no energy left in them. But I don't gonna give up. All this is for Takanori. Everything is for him. If he's going to die. I will die with him. Even if he goes to heaven and Im to hell, for being this mean to him.
With the last energy in my body I kick the doors. Finnally, they opens for me and sun shines right in my eyes.
Then I saw Takanori standing at the edge of roof. He looks at me with his red eyes... God, he looks so beautiful. Like an angel.
I don't wanna him, to go back to heaven...
"Su-suzuki..?"
Again, I made him scared.
I look at him. He looks at me.
I don't know what to say.
"What are you doing here?"
Seariously, what I am doing here...?
I got scared. What should I say? That I love him? That I didn't mean to say all those words to him? No. I can't... It's too hard... I...
"You made me to step this huge step Suzuki and you have gut to come here??"
I can't see his face anymore. Everything looks so blurry now...
"Oh, I see... Wanted to say last words to me huh?" stupid sun I can't see...him..."That I am chibi fag and stupid geek ne?"
No...No, no, no, no, no... It's not like that Taka, it's just...
"Well, for the first time in two years, I won't let you do that." he steps more to the edge. "Bye Suzuki, hope you find another baka to bully."
Teachers and students on the ground start to scream and my legs gives up and runs all the way to him. I grab him by waist and pull him on roof with me.
"What are you doing?! Let me GO!!!" he squirm and shout at me.
It's not like I am going to let him go now...
I push him on the ground and grab him by his hands. Now, I am on top of him.
Silence.
I look at his beutiful, yet red eyes and lean near to him, just to catch those sweet and beautiful lips with mine... It's first time I ever enjoyed kiss. It was like kissing...It was like kissing Takanori...
I heard noise "hmpf" from him. Guess I am only one who enjoy it huh...?
I let him go and stand up. I don't want to hurt him anymore. He worth happiness and love. Not pain, which I gave to him.
He sit up and looks at me. I look on the ground.
"Why did you kiss me?" he wasn't mad anymore. Just curious.
"There is no need you to know." my voice wasn't angry or cold either. It was just voice..
"If you kissed me, there is need to know." guess cat is out of bag Suzuki...
I hesitate. I can't tell him that. He will laugh at me. Plus, I am not worth his love..
"I can't tell you." now, I sound like little kid with secret.
Takanori stands up right in front me and lifts my head to look at him.
"There was two years already and if you not going to tell me why, I am going to kill myself in any other way." his words were said without any "no" in his eyes. Everything was already planned in his head.
It scares me to think about this kind of incident repeating again. I look at his eyes. Those curious eyes and puffy lips witch I...
I blush.
God... Now he's so close to me and I even kissed him and...What should I do..? Panic was written on my face that momment.
"Just tell me, why."
He can read my mind or something?
I sight. Be a man Akira, for once.
"If I say, will you run away?" that was stupid question. He could run away any momment. I wasn't even allowed to ask him something like that.
"No. Just tell me." Takanori, you are really brave.
I smile. He looks at me like an idiot. But it was first time after so many years, that I wanted to smile... He made me smile...
"You know what Takanori... I love you..."
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One month later.
Now I am sitting in the park. Sweet smell of spring tickles my nose, most wonderful person in my life sleeps on my shoulder. I am smilling and blushing like an idiot. Takanori makes me so happy...
Month past. Most wonderful weeks of my life past.
I changed. Takanori made me into loving and good person. Of course I am good only to him, but... Still...
I can't believe, that he didn't run away from me that time...
I can't believe that he gave me chance. A chance that I needed so much, to show my true self...
Now I hear a wonderful, most beutiful and fast heartbeat and feel warm from his body and cheeks.
I kiss his forehead. He's so cute... I love him so much...
"I will never let you fly away my little angel..."I wisper, while leaning back again.
God, I hope he didn't hear that. >///>''
The end.
Author: UeLuwsAkiraRei
Chapter(s): oneshot
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance, drama, school
Warnings: Bad english, bully Reita, Ruki wants to kill himself, bullying.
Pairings: Reita x Ruki; Ruki x Reita.
Summary: I love him, but I hurt him. Why? Because I am stupid.
Comments: I don't know if this fic is good. I just wanted to write something about this problem. I am bullied at school by some guys at the momment. They call me ugly, sorty etc. and there is always time when you want to run away from it and just end your life.
Everything is written in Reita's Pov. Diffrent srift is his mind talking *that sounds weird lol*
Well, enjoy. Comments are welcomed with hug :))
"Oi, Chibi!"
I am doing it again, huh...?
He just looks at me with those big eyes of his. Those eyes, that I love so much... Those eyes, which looks at me with so much fear.
"W-what d-do you want...?" was his small question.
Nothing, just to be with you...
"Guess what, chibi fag, I just wanted to tell you, that your bag is on this school roof..." I smirk with that evil smile of mine "if you want to get it, you should go now. You are one of those geeks, so hurry up, bell is going to ring soon."
Why can I shut up?
He just look at me with blank expression. Silence. Just stare. His eyes in panic, I see how he want to cry, but I am here.So he can't.Not in front of me. If I were his friend, that Yutaka guy, he would cry.. No. Yutaka never ever made Taka cry. Takanori always happy with him. I hate Yutaka because he always get those beautiful smiles that Taka give to him. Lucky bastard.
But... I am happy, that Takanori is happy and he can forget my cruel words with that friend of his.
Takanori know and I know myself, that if he's going to cry, I am going to make fun of him. Again...
Silence finally brokes up from little whisper.
"On...on the ro-roof..?" then he chokes on his own words.
Takanori...I...
"Yeah, just go there." I answer coldly and walk away. I hear small, quick steps echoing in hall. He runned away...
It had been two years since I bully Takanori. It hurts so much to see him cry every day like this because of me. It makes me want to cry.
I am monster, I know. But I don't know how to make him think about me. It's the only way I know.
It's sick.
Seventeen year boys usually loves girls, like that with short skirt, who looks at me with her bitchy eyes, which I don't care.
Everything is in my head, about Takanori. I know, that he would never look at me, or talk to me. I am just punk with blond hair and noseband. I can't even learn math or have wonderful grades like Takanori does. We are from two diffrent worlds. How I wish that would change...
I call him fag, gay... All those words that I call myself when I am alone and thinking of him.
I call him chibi and small ant...Although I love it, that he's small like that. It makes him look so cute...
I say alot of things.
I say that he's like an girl, that his make up and clothes suckish and... I hurt him every day so badly...
I never felt that those words were true.
What kind of person I am, that I talk to my love like that? If someone ever touch Takanori, I would kill him...
Guess only nosebanded freak, can hurt Takanori huh...?
I stop my legs from walking.I look through the hall window.
I remember how we met in this hall. It was suckish week to me. Alot of tests which I am failed anyway. We were only fifteen, he accidentelly bumped into me. I looked at him like he was some kind of alien, or trash that dirt me. But he just bowed polytely and say "I am very sorry".
Since that day I started to notice him more. Started to stalk him. When I knew about him more, I started to bully him. Because this kind of beautiful, artistic and angelic person, would never look at someone like me.
How I fell in love with him? Oh, the answer is simple. From the first time I met him, I already liked him. I just couldn't admit it. But when I heard him singing... I don't know what kind of song it was... But lyrics, there were so sad. It was something about the flowers.
Hmmm... If I ask him, would he sing to me?
Stupid thoughts...
But think about it Suzuki. Spring is love time ne? Why shouldn't you confess to Taka?
No. I can't. It's just...
And then my thoughts were cut of by girls scream. Loud and scared one.
It kind of annoyed me. No one can cut my thoughts, when I thinking of Taka... God I am so gay.
I look around and search for that girl, that screamed so loudly.
Then I saw it.
Little girl, all shaking and crying runs through the hall from school yard.
I grab her by hand..Her eyes looks scared like hell.
"What's the metter?"
She wants to run away, but I don't let her. I am too strong for her.
Oh, I remember, she's one year younger then I and Taka are... On Valentines day, she gave Taka chocolade.
My eyes narroved at the memorie.
"What's the metter?" I repeat question in more cold tone.
Girl hesitate a little, but just looking at angry and cold me, everyone start to talk.
"Suzuki-senpai..." she starts" Matsumoto-senpai is..."
Takanori...?
"What's with Takanori?" my heart start beating faster.
"Matsumoto-senpai is on the schools roof!" she sniffs.
"So? I send him there?" why do you need to cry? pff.
Girls eyes widens and more tears start to flow.
"You did this to him???!!!" she looked so angry, I jerked away a little.
"What are you talking women?" I don't understand.
She slaps me. Damn, it hurts...
"Takanori~senpai is going to jump!! It's all YOUR FOULT!!! You stupid asshole!!"
Wha...t...?
I set girls hand free and start to think...
So, he's going to end this life...? Because of...
I start to run.
I hear girls voice all around the school, but I don't care about her. My love is going to die because of me, if I don't hurry.
It's your foult you damned nosebanded punk.
I run up to the last floor, all sweaty and tired. Why in the hell, school has six floors? I look around, search for doors. When I found it, I try to open it, but God hates me and he helped Takanori find the key and locked himself there.
That baka...
I bang doors and shout his name, to open it. But nothing happens. I just hear teachers and students shouting for him to set on the ground. What a stupid kid, I never told him to go and kill himself...
"Why are you doing this Takanori, we can help you! There is no need in such an action!" I heard some teacher shouting.
"No one ever helped me, when there was a problem... Now, I will change it..."
His small and sad voice broke me into pieces. My eyes started to get watery. God, he make me emotional.
I start to bang doors with my legs, fists and all other organs just to open them. If someone saw me at that moment, I looked like crazy.
But I couldn't stop anymore.
There is no time to think. Takanori is going to jump any momment.
My hands and legs hurts. Stupid doors. There is no energy left in them. But I don't gonna give up. All this is for Takanori. Everything is for him. If he's going to die. I will die with him. Even if he goes to heaven and Im to hell, for being this mean to him.
With the last energy in my body I kick the doors. Finnally, they opens for me and sun shines right in my eyes.
Then I saw Takanori standing at the edge of roof. He looks at me with his red eyes... God, he looks so beautiful. Like an angel.
I don't wanna him, to go back to heaven...
"Su-suzuki..?"
Again, I made him scared.
I look at him. He looks at me.
I don't know what to say.
"What are you doing here?"
Seariously, what I am doing here...?
I got scared. What should I say? That I love him? That I didn't mean to say all those words to him? No. I can't... It's too hard... I...
"You made me to step this huge step Suzuki and you have gut to come here??"
I can't see his face anymore. Everything looks so blurry now...
"Oh, I see... Wanted to say last words to me huh?" stupid sun I can't see...him..."That I am chibi fag and stupid geek ne?"
No...No, no, no, no, no... It's not like that Taka, it's just...
"Well, for the first time in two years, I won't let you do that." he steps more to the edge. "Bye Suzuki, hope you find another baka to bully."
Teachers and students on the ground start to scream and my legs gives up and runs all the way to him. I grab him by waist and pull him on roof with me.
"What are you doing?! Let me GO!!!" he squirm and shout at me.
It's not like I am going to let him go now...
I push him on the ground and grab him by his hands. Now, I am on top of him.
Silence.
I look at his beutiful, yet red eyes and lean near to him, just to catch those sweet and beautiful lips with mine... It's first time I ever enjoyed kiss. It was like kissing...It was like kissing Takanori...
I heard noise "hmpf" from him. Guess I am only one who enjoy it huh...?
I let him go and stand up. I don't want to hurt him anymore. He worth happiness and love. Not pain, which I gave to him.
He sit up and looks at me. I look on the ground.
"Why did you kiss me?" he wasn't mad anymore. Just curious.
"There is no need you to know." my voice wasn't angry or cold either. It was just voice..
"If you kissed me, there is need to know." guess cat is out of bag Suzuki...
I hesitate. I can't tell him that. He will laugh at me. Plus, I am not worth his love..
"I can't tell you." now, I sound like little kid with secret.
Takanori stands up right in front me and lifts my head to look at him.
"There was two years already and if you not going to tell me why, I am going to kill myself in any other way." his words were said without any "no" in his eyes. Everything was already planned in his head.
It scares me to think about this kind of incident repeating again. I look at his eyes. Those curious eyes and puffy lips witch I...
I blush.
God... Now he's so close to me and I even kissed him and...What should I do..? Panic was written on my face that momment.
"Just tell me, why."
He can read my mind or something?
I sight. Be a man Akira, for once.
"If I say, will you run away?" that was stupid question. He could run away any momment. I wasn't even allowed to ask him something like that.
"No. Just tell me." Takanori, you are really brave.
I smile. He looks at me like an idiot. But it was first time after so many years, that I wanted to smile... He made me smile...
"You know what Takanori... I love you..."
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One month later.
Now I am sitting in the park. Sweet smell of spring tickles my nose, most wonderful person in my life sleeps on my shoulder. I am smilling and blushing like an idiot. Takanori makes me so happy...
Month past. Most wonderful weeks of my life past.
I changed. Takanori made me into loving and good person. Of course I am good only to him, but... Still...
I can't believe, that he didn't run away from me that time...
I can't believe that he gave me chance. A chance that I needed so much, to show my true self...
Now I hear a wonderful, most beutiful and fast heartbeat and feel warm from his body and cheeks.
I kiss his forehead. He's so cute... I love him so much...
"I will never let you fly away my little angel..."I wisper, while leaning back again.
God, I hope he didn't hear that. >///>''
The end.