Hit the wall scream out loud as you start to crawl back in ( Read more... )

I wonder how long it will take me, how long until I realize the things that I truly know in my heart but refuse to accept. How long will I lie to myself? How long will I let you walk all over my heart? Why, why do I love you so much? Why does this hurt so badly? You don't respect me, not even a little, and I wonder if it came down to it, would you ( Read more... )

Tonight my mind slips back to her, I wish she was here to do this with me. I wish that she could help me with this, to hold me to let me know that it will all be ok. This is the one thing that I wished she had gotten to see. Tomorrow (the doctor called today to reschedule my appointment) I will find out, and I wish she was with me. I don't want to ( Read more... )

As I lay awake in the early hours of the morning, I started thinking about how much this is going to change my life. (I realize your all going duh!) I realized how much it has already changed my life. How though only 8 weeks in that I would do anything for my kids, how already I love them with my whole heart, how I would give my life for them ( Read more... )

Who knew that things would turn out this way? I sure didn't ( Read more... )

I've had a lot of time to think the last day or so, I've had morning sickness to the extreme, and well lets just say it hasn't been very pleasant. I've thought a lot about Monday, about how I'm just really not looking forward to it. I had big plans for my birthday, but due to the current situation, well I won't be going to Canada to drink ( Read more... )

As tomorrow approaches, I feel kind of empty. I have no family, and well tomorrow for me will just be a friendly reminder of how sometimes life just isn't fair.

I had a dream last night ( Read more... )

Life has never made sense to me, until I met you, and then for whatever reason, it made sense. I'm looking back now, and I'm trying to remember the good times, there were so many. I wonder where things started to go wrong, when you stopped loving me. I don't understand, I guess that's my biggest problem, I don't understand how you could just walk ( Read more... )

Contrary to popular belief, no I am no dead, I just well have had a lack of internet lately. Since my last post? Well lets see, I had gull bladder surgery, and got to deal with a very fun infection ( Read more... )