imaginary ones.

:|

you're gonna miss me when i'm gone

forget yesterday ( Read more... )

i
am
so
over all that bullcrap.

ha. freaking. ha.

i think i am.
i bought you a candycane the other day, though.
so strange :|
do you even like candycanes?

like the slow
breaking of hearts

slow goodbyes
to the long-gone
loves of youth

slow goodbyes
to yesterday's mistakes
to today's regrets
to forever's...
lost

only slow goodbyes.

... with leaden arrows of indifference.

it's such a waste of time staying hurt.
i'm stalling really badly.

forgiveness,
time,
happiness...

[i'm not even sure if i'm still on the nice list anymore :|]

at least, i'm doing a [really] good job at pretending that i am
i'm old and tired and hollow
chewed up and spit out
and just..

jaded.

the shittiest part is that
i know that it's because a part of me died along with you

if you knew you couldn't (and would not) stay ( Read more... )

i got sick the other day. i was sent to the hospital.
oh :( why'd you get sick?
because you left.

and

hi.
heeeeey. why'd you call?
wala lang. i missed you.

tell me when you're not doing anything so i can hear your voice again.

i've always had a choice.
even before all of this began, i had a choice.
i chose to bring this upon myself.
i didn't know exactly what i was gonna get, but i chose this anyway.
and everyday since then, i've chosen
(to keep going)

i haven't regretted anything, so far.
so please please don't make me :)