this weekend was pretty sweet. basically (i think i say that alot). when i was pumping gas tonight, it felt like summer. i find myself occasionally longing for the summer nights that are like fun even though they are so empty. and like not even when im with anybody. like the times when i find myself alone (or just feel alone) in like random ( Read more... )

WOOOOOO! yay shannon! yessssssssss!

this afternoon/tonight was the shiz-diggity. yay shannon and nacho for hilarious car rides and whatnot. I got a free dinner too, yay burritos! i even saw caroline by chance! yessssss.

except i am a jerk in certain ways...but i know i can make it up, so i think i am set. yesssss.

hot damn ( Read more... )

i keep tapping or shaking my foot or other things like that. thats really unlike me, to just like always tap or shake some body part. i wonder why im doing this.

why cant i hold grudges? i really think things would be better for me if actually would hold the actions of people against them.

why is it that when people have like a distorted view on things, its the people around them that suffer. i guess its your own duty to yourself to avoid these people or at least these situations. but its just not fair. i just wish i could stop the crap going on for a bunch of people, blah.

i am feeling like school is less of a place to see friends than i normally do. probably because i just feel like everyone is extremely confusing to me, with the exception of a few cool people...and i totally love those people. I think the whole atmosphere of school is finally pissing me off, after over 3 years of high school. right now im only ( Read more... )

and once again, i am coming into a new calendar year many with different things than last. i must say that in the past year my life has gotten ridiculously more drama-filled than my life has ever been and should ever be, whereas i seem to be a more boring person. I like being boring, that way people dont like me, its easier being on the receiving ( Read more... )

fuckin' a.
totally sweet.
these are phrases to decribe how im feeling, mmm.
well, except for the fact that my feet are cold. other than that, im just dandy.

i have realized that i dont know how to socialize in school anymore. i feel so boring and like im a burden to people i talk to. it seems like im never around friends until i get out of school. i used to go to school to see my friends, now i have to leave school to see them. well there are a couple friends in my classes, but i havent been around ( Read more... )