People come and go from my life; it’s too complicated to maintain relationships ( Read more... )

It’s been awhile since I’ve updated this journal with something about my life instead of incessant rambling. I suppose it’s because I don’t really have anything with significance to share with the world. I’m sorry… really, I am. (sarcasm ( Read more... )

For the first time in a week, I slept more than two hours in a night. I woke up this morning feeling slightly revitalized. Twenty minutes spent gazing into the mirror, unable to recognize the girl staring back at me. She looked vacant, no life in her eyes… an image so uninviting, yet so alluring. I studied every inch of the image that is ( Read more... )

Fuck today ( Read more... )

Tried to think about something positive, searched for something real ( Read more... )

I feel like I am standing alone in a crowd that is spinning around me ( Read more... )

I’m so lost within my thoughts… I’m not really sure where to begin ( Read more... )

I thought of this: I thought of how every day each of us experiences a few little moments that have just a bit more resonance than other moments- we hear a word that sticks in our mind- or maybe we have a small experience that pulls us out of ourselves, if only briefly. We share a hotel elevator with a bride in her veil, say, or a stranger gives ( Read more... )

I was recently discussing with a friend how fortunate it is that I don’t own a gun… not that I am afraid of hurting someone else, but more because I am afraid of taking my own life ( Read more... )

If I hold very still and slow my breathing, I can pretend I'm dead...