the time is exactly 11:30 AM. I am sick to my stomach as the tears begin to stream down my face. I just wish I could be home for this, but you know my heart is there. I feel like my heart skips a beat everytime I think about this. I know I should be trusting what God did, but I cant. I lost all trust in him when my best friend died in 2003 and ( Read more... )

I cant take this anymore. i just cant do it. God, would you please stop taking all of my fucking friends? once, and you say why me and why him/her? twice, you say the same thing. but by number 6, its pretty much a fuck you now ( Read more... )

well its 2:33 am friday morning, and yes, im still awake..haha. I am still not done packing to leave tomorrow...guess I should get on that eh? but instead im here updating...since I prolly wont update again until after my break! My break is gonna be kinda busy, but atleast the no school work and stress will be REAL nice ( Read more... )

3 days till I fly home ( Read more... )

yet something else gets thrown my way. sometimes i just dont know what to do anymore. it all started in 1999 with whitney, and i didnt really understand it then. then in june 2003, Ashley, which theres still a whole in my heart from her. then December 2003, mikey, still a hole there. then october 2004, wes and vernon, obviously still a hole ( Read more... )

SPRING BREAK JUST CANT COME FAST ENOUGH! I NEEEEED A BREAK FROM SCHOOL, ITS WAAAAY TOO STRESSFUL!  I STUDY MY LIFE AWAY AND I STILL FEEL DONT DO AS WELL AS I NEED TO! AHHHH!  WELL NOW THAT ITS 230 AM AND I CANT GET TO SLEEP I THINK IM GONNA ATLEAST LAY DOWN TILL CLASS AT 9....

7 DAYS TILL MY WEEK BREAK! AND MY VISIT TO ITHACA AND KELLY! YAY I ( Read more... )

so tonite at 10:30 eastern time, 7:30 las vegas time, my brother Dan got married. I thought I would be atleast okay with the fact that I couldnt be there because I have a chemistry exam Thursday and am in the middle of writing another enlish paper, but I wasnt. The church (chapel) they went to puts a video of the marriage on their website about ( Read more... )

my day was going so badly, it sucked so badly, but then something happened that made my day very very good ( Read more... )

life sucks right now ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY RENEE THOMPSON

February 18, 1987 - June 10, 2003

I LOVE AND MISS YOU!

YOURE IN OUR HEARTS FOREVER

"I LIVE FOR THE NIGHTS I CANT REMEMBER AND THE FRIENDS I'LL NEVER FORGET"

"THE GREATEST REVENGE IS TO ACCOMPLISH WHAT OTHERS SAY YOU CANNOT DO!"

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