you know, i was just talking about this the other day to someone. i said that i'm not afraid of death. well, because i'm not. i do wish it'd come sooner, though i'm not going to take it myself. make sense? i think so.
"and the truth is, we're all human. any of us can snap and look forward to death as a sweet and loving release. any of us can look forward to our death happily... but we can't bring it on. we can't force ourselves to feel that way. we can't conjure it up as if we really wanted to die. naturally we want to live, we can't make ourselves not want to live. but sometimes... we're tossed into some unnatural and twisted state of being. and it just happens. all it takes is that one thing that'll break you. but we don't know what will break us."
yeah, need i say more? you understand. and i understand you..
i don't know if you get it. what i'm saying, is that you can't force yourself to want to die. and when you say you wish death would come sooner, you're lying to yourself. because if you weren't afraid of death, and you really wished death would come sooner, then you would have made it come sooner already
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but see, that's the thing. i do want to live, of course. but wanting to live doesn't mean that the idea of dying is any less satisfying. dying to me seems peaceful. to finally get out of this crazy world we live in (though for now i like it, but it will get worse...we know this.)
i'm not saying i want to die per say. i'm just saying i like the idea. sounds nice.
i don't really know how to explain it better. but you're right "i don't want to die." i didn't think i said i did up there...
no offense was taken, by the way. lol. i just thought you'd understand. and i do understand you...trust me, i do.
I often wish I were dead, but I am fearful of the unknown, basically. Religious conditioning (which I can't seem to shake off), has contributed to fearing hell. I don't want to escape my pain here only to experience something worse in the hereafter. However, there is a difference between being passively suicidal and actively suicidal. If someone held a gun to my head, I may just let them pull the trigger.
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"and the truth is, we're all human. any of us can snap and look forward to death as a sweet and loving release. any of us can look forward to our death happily... but we can't bring it on. we can't force ourselves to feel that way. we can't conjure it up as if we really wanted to die. naturally we want to live, we can't make ourselves not want to live. but sometimes... we're tossed into some unnatural and twisted state of being. and it just happens. all it takes is that one thing that'll break you. but we don't know what will break us."
yeah, need i say more? you understand. and i understand you..
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i'm not saying i want to die per say. i'm just saying i like the idea. sounds nice.
i don't really know how to explain it better. but you're right "i don't want to die." i didn't think i said i did up there...
no offense was taken, by the way. lol. i just thought you'd understand. and i do understand you...trust me, i do.
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