Comments | umakemethrowup: many of you WONT get this, so don't comment unless you do...

umakemethrowup

many of you WONT get this, so don't comment unless you do...

Feb 10, 2005 12:29

I don't feel good. I feel really bad about myself. I feel that I'm not in control of myself anymore, and thats scary. I'm letting my self fall away to something else *I think we know what* and I don't like it. I want me back. I want my self respect back. Forget everyone else, and what they think, I want to know that I can do it, and im GOING to. It ( Read more... )

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xo_memarie_xo February 11 2005, 07:58:15 UTC

I have alot to say about that. But I wont say it all.
It would be like 3 pages of preaching. But yeah, you
should feel bad about yourself. Any drug to user should.
But you dog overcome it. Its hard. But you dog do
it. Ím always here to help. And, drugs will make you lose
self respect. Under will sex. It sucks. Two things
that make you feel wonderful, make you feel under horrible in the
aftermath.

umakemethrowup February 11 2005, 09:00:55 UTC

I do feel bad, and I know i should, but i think this is something that Ireally ned to do. but, i'm scared that when I get so far, i'll fall right back. I think this is how i'm going to see who's my friend, by seeing who help's me with this struggle. Because that's what i really need, is support!

wanderinghope March 12 2005, 20:14:41 UTC

I may not have the same problems as you, but I know what it feels like to not be in control of myself and how horrible I feel about my life that I don't mean to lead. I just wish I had a positive outlook on it like you, or at least what you write, saying that you need to fix yourself for you and now care what others think.