I bought a butterfly knife today because I thought it might make me more bad-ass if I had one with me when I went to bars. That is what I want to become. I want to be known as bad ass. And also a loose cannon ( Read more... )

I miss how my face matched perfectly into where his neck and shoulder met. And how I could crush it there forever. I miss how he introduced me as "miss kaye" to all of his friends. I miss how warm his hands were when I touched them inside his pocket. I miss how delicate his nails looked upon his fingers. The tips of his fingers were soooo delicate ( Read more... )

I miss sweet soft bunnies that rub my hair and tell me I'm soft, and they feel so warm on me, and I love crushing myself into them. And sometimes they get damp, but I love them anyway, and they are gentle all the time. That is their nature. They cannot be hard like me, but that is why I love them. I think about soft bunnies all the time. When I am ( Read more... )

I am reading the most amazing book about women!!!!! I love it so much and I am only on page 42 ( Read more... )

To bring Baxter Henry Antonio to school with me today. I feel so lonely. He loves me so much. I like to crush him to my chest.

I am at the library ( Read more... )

I strapped Baxter Henry into the passenger seat of my car when we went on our little journey to dunkin' donuts. I crushed him to me when the tears were so abundant that they were abstructing my driving capabilities. His mouth muffled in my chest. He managed to squeeze out the words ( Read more... )

I cannot seem to study for my gov't class. You see how I abbreviate things ( Read more... )

And now it is infected because of a stupid moment of weakness. What is the point of living if I am so obviously incapable of receiving love. In the famous words of the smiths am I "unloveable ( Read more... )

I cannot. I never thought I could do it, but I have to. I have to do this. And so shall it will be out of my body. And no one will be there with me. Just myself and the baby who will never be. Who was, but will no longer be. And maybe I will never have another one.