I will write poetry one day perhaps again. Indeed soon I shall, but now is not the time ( Read more... )

I am alone. I am angry, afraid, depressed, and overall in a dark mood. What friend's I have, I have failed time and time again. There is no reason for anyone to befriend me, I am unneeded, I have no value - Nothing to give. I cannot do well in school, I have created my own self-destruction which shall forever spiral unto itself until the bitter ( Read more... )

What is important to you? What are you values and morals? Why do you chose to live the way you do? Can you still change your path, or is it already decided ( Read more... )

Well. The god of all that is of luck has shined his face upon me, for truly that could all be that which has influenced my life yesterday. I, Erik, have been invited to participate in the Ontario Central Region Epee fencing team, of which only 2 junior fencers of the area could partake in. I had gathered up enough points from various regions in ( Read more... )

Curse my capricorn sign for making me a work-a-holic. I decided today would be the one day I wouldn't worry about house work, school work, or personal projects. It would be a day of relaxation! But now my stupid subconscious is making me feel bad for not working. For me relaxation -is- work! I can't do without! Oh how I've awaited tomorrow so that ( Read more... )

Well, it was an alright weekend I guess. You guys must be wondering where I went, huh ( Read more... )

I'm in a very... hmmm... Moody mood. I mean to say, multiple emotions have convulsed upon me at once. I think because I was talking about depression and suicide with my friend it brought those emotions back up in me. Most of me says that those emotions are wrong and you shouldn't feel them, especially because no one else likes them. But then part ( Read more... )

I spent absolutely all day studying/doing work with small breaks inbetween so I wouldn't go insane. I NEED TO GET OUT! I want to explore! I want to do something with my life, not just be stuck in this iridescent prison! Giah, I hate my room, and yet I've spent so much of my time here... Well, since I've studied hard, maybe I can have a break ( Read more... )

That title was for no real reason. I've been rather moody and negative in my comments lately >< That's what happens when you hold it in and your only source of conversation is a friggin' online diary no one looks at ( Read more... )

Alright. I'm a bit better now ( Read more... )