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In throwing away my former life I was supposed to free myself from it, but I've been able to do nothing but think about it. Trying not to think about it doesn't work, of course. What I need is distractions.
It's strange. I've spent my entire life putting on different masks to please different people - forcing myself to enjoy wine and verbose old plays to appear sophisticated, altering my sppech patterns and posture - that now that I'm trying not to bother with that anymore... I don't know who I really am. I should find out. I should stop living for other people and live for myself. I'm just not sure where to begin.
I hope I can find something I like enough to fill my room with. I hate seeing it so empty.
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I really, really need all the distractions I can get from my own self-pity so In light of all this talk of fanfiction lately, I propose we have a little contest. Here's an example. It isn't very child-friendly, I'm afraid, so students shouldn't click it. [IT'S ON THE MOST EASILY HACKABLE LOCK FROM STUDENTS.]
It's strange. I've spent my entire life putting on different masks to please different people - forcing myself to enjoy wine and verbose old plays to appear sophisticated, altering my sppech patterns and posture - that now that I'm trying not to bother with that anymore... I don't know who I really am. I should find out. I should stop living for other people and live for myself. I'm just not sure where to begin.
I hope I can find something I like enough to fill my room with. I hate seeing it so empty.
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I really, really need all the distractions I can get from my own self-pity so In light of all this talk of fanfiction lately, I propose we have a little contest. Here's an example. It isn't very child-friendly, I'm afraid, so students shouldn't click it. [IT'S ON THE MOST EASILY HACKABLE LOCK FROM STUDENTS.]