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Title: wonderful world
Genre: Romance/Fluff
Pairing: ShiHan
Rating: PG-13
Warning: Err... It would be nice if I get someone to beta.XD
I don't remember when I started loving you.
It must have been the first time our eyes met, though, that the sleeping heart inside of me had burst forth and gushed out love. I haven't felt like this since forever. It was almost as if I wasn't myself anymore.
Your smallest gestures, your laughter and smiles all stirred within me feelings that couldn't be described with words. Even just the thought of you brought forth extreme happiness within me --so much that everything I saw had begun to shine.
Loving you had never been easy though. Day by day the need to have you near me grew more and more. It wasn't just enough to see you smile. I wanted to have you by my side forever.
So, I did the only thing a man in love with another man would do.
I tried to distance myself away from you.
Because, ever since I was a child, I was told that God made males for females and females for males.
There was no room for exceptions. It is a sin to love someone of the same gender.
Every night, I find myself haunted by thoughts of sinning against my God. Every day, I find myself haunted by the sweet temptation of your smile.
I tried everything to forget you. I got myself a woman, though she went away when she realized that there was no love between us. I focused more on work, but every time I got a dance step right the first time and you'd see, you'd smile at me and tell me how I've been working so hard, pat my shoulder encouragingly, say 'I'm so proud of you!', and I realize I'm just kidding myself.
And then there are those times I can't help but think that you were given to me by God Himself. Because in all honesty, it's strange to have had the chance to meet you in this wide, wide world.
Besides, God wouldn't punish someone because of love, would he?
No matter how hard I think, I can't find an answer, though. All I know is that when you're here, and when I'm here, it's enough for me. I find myself unafraid of anything because I know everything will be all right. I don't know what will happen tomorrow, but this meeting God has given me is something so amazing.
So I do the only thing left to do.
"I love you."
Surprised, you said, "What?"
"I said, 'I love you.'"
"Shiwon, are you... drunk?"
I laughed, shook my head and said, "No."
"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why are you telling me this?"
"Because I have to."
"...I don't understand, Shiwon."
"I have to," I said, as I looked up at the countless of stars God had placed up at the night skies, "because God doesn't promise tomorrow to anyone. I'm afraid I'd lose a chance to tell you, hyung."
"So you're telling me now? When we're up here in the rooftop, ditching practice?"
I laughed, "Yes."
He shook his head, "You're weird, Shiwon, really. But..."
"But?"
"But you have to start praying hard because I love you, too. You'd need all the host of angels and saints to save you because I can't and will not ever let you go."
And then, under the countless bright lights littering the sky, Hangeng and I shared our first kiss.
Hesitantly, we broke apart. He smiles at me lovingly. I smile back just the same. Somehow, every time I see him smile, it warms up my courage even more.
It was then that I realized that, no, God wouldn't punish someone because of love.
He had stood up from his seat afterwards, dragged me along while saying we had to go back to practice in case anyone noticed our absence. I laughed all the way, amused at how we treat each other as if nothing happened.
When we were near the studio though, he stopped and turned to me, smiled and mouthed, 'I love you', before opening the door. Then he laughed and let go of my hand, heading towards his position.
Going back to my own position, I couldn't help but whisper a heartfelt 'Thank you' to the one God that had made all this possible.
Genre: Romance/Fluff
Pairing: ShiHan
Rating: PG-13
Warning: Err... It would be nice if I get someone to beta.XD
I don't remember when I started loving you.
It must have been the first time our eyes met, though, that the sleeping heart inside of me had burst forth and gushed out love. I haven't felt like this since forever. It was almost as if I wasn't myself anymore.
Your smallest gestures, your laughter and smiles all stirred within me feelings that couldn't be described with words. Even just the thought of you brought forth extreme happiness within me --so much that everything I saw had begun to shine.
Loving you had never been easy though. Day by day the need to have you near me grew more and more. It wasn't just enough to see you smile. I wanted to have you by my side forever.
So, I did the only thing a man in love with another man would do.
I tried to distance myself away from you.
Because, ever since I was a child, I was told that God made males for females and females for males.
There was no room for exceptions. It is a sin to love someone of the same gender.
Every night, I find myself haunted by thoughts of sinning against my God. Every day, I find myself haunted by the sweet temptation of your smile.
I tried everything to forget you. I got myself a woman, though she went away when she realized that there was no love between us. I focused more on work, but every time I got a dance step right the first time and you'd see, you'd smile at me and tell me how I've been working so hard, pat my shoulder encouragingly, say 'I'm so proud of you!', and I realize I'm just kidding myself.
And then there are those times I can't help but think that you were given to me by God Himself. Because in all honesty, it's strange to have had the chance to meet you in this wide, wide world.
Besides, God wouldn't punish someone because of love, would he?
No matter how hard I think, I can't find an answer, though. All I know is that when you're here, and when I'm here, it's enough for me. I find myself unafraid of anything because I know everything will be all right. I don't know what will happen tomorrow, but this meeting God has given me is something so amazing.
So I do the only thing left to do.
"I love you."
Surprised, you said, "What?"
"I said, 'I love you.'"
"Shiwon, are you... drunk?"
I laughed, shook my head and said, "No."
"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why are you telling me this?"
"Because I have to."
"...I don't understand, Shiwon."
"I have to," I said, as I looked up at the countless of stars God had placed up at the night skies, "because God doesn't promise tomorrow to anyone. I'm afraid I'd lose a chance to tell you, hyung."
"So you're telling me now? When we're up here in the rooftop, ditching practice?"
I laughed, "Yes."
He shook his head, "You're weird, Shiwon, really. But..."
"But?"
"But you have to start praying hard because I love you, too. You'd need all the host of angels and saints to save you because I can't and will not ever let you go."
And then, under the countless bright lights littering the sky, Hangeng and I shared our first kiss.
Hesitantly, we broke apart. He smiles at me lovingly. I smile back just the same. Somehow, every time I see him smile, it warms up my courage even more.
It was then that I realized that, no, God wouldn't punish someone because of love.
He had stood up from his seat afterwards, dragged me along while saying we had to go back to practice in case anyone noticed our absence. I laughed all the way, amused at how we treat each other as if nothing happened.
When we were near the studio though, he stopped and turned to me, smiled and mouthed, 'I love you', before opening the door. Then he laughed and let go of my hand, heading towards his position.
Going back to my own position, I couldn't help but whisper a heartfelt 'Thank you' to the one God that had made all this possible.