I haven't tried for a while because i was going through a purging phase, then a binging phase, and now i am left with normal to binging eating.
i just eat unhealthily basically.
i'm going to count calories and work out alll the timeee... in a perfect world. but... i really am going to. starting.....now.

As i felt the familiar sensation surge through my body ( Read more... )

last night my best friend kenzi and i got really stoned.
we saw many people that we knew, but it wasnt awkward or anything. it was the best time of my life. everything was absolutely perfect. i was so happy to be alive. weed doesnt do that for you. you can argue it, but it basically just induces the calm feeling.

Today was the first day of school. I was so bored that I almost fell asleep in every class. I had the hiccups all day long. My AP music theory class should go well i think.. i'm nervous about doing sight singing and presenting things in front of other people but i guess i'll be okay. Today was weird, new classes, new people. I just sort of drifted ( Read more... )

my binging is getting so bad
i weigh more than ever now
i want to get a personal trainer to force me to work on my muscles.

i suck at life.
i give up.

today i woke up, ate three slices of bread with a TON of peanut butter, purged, then later on i melted marshmallows and chocolate together in the microwave and purged that which was super easy by the way. i wasnt even hungry. i just wish i wouldnt eat so much.

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