June 16th is the day dean and sara are having baby vera-lynn.

this weekend, im hanging out with jason and some other people at erics house.

life is so awesome right now there is nothing to write in this stupid live journal.

:)

I wasn't looking for a relationship. I wasn't looking for anything. I was actually trying to get rid of what i had ( Read more... )

 i wish my life was back to normal. 
one and a half years ago normal. 
i wish i wasnt forced to be with the people i dont want to be with, and have had already lost the people i do want to be with.
ive had a change of heart,
and i really want a change of life.

how  come they make cigarette packs so attractive. ive been smoking newports for a while now, and i just noticed today that it has an upside down nike sign on it. it attracks athelets. salems packs are more earthly and green, and that attracks hippiesh people (TRINDLE), and camels no. 9s have the pink and black or green and black packs, which ( Read more... )

 so i have no place to live.
i am currently at the homeless shelter in lewiston...
which was not my choice. i want to get  help, straighten my life out. ya know.
but after last night, im not so sure that i want to go back, 
i probably will, since i dont wanna live in a cardboard box at all.
wow, things go from bad to worse... very easily

 i always have a really horrible time being through with a boy ( Read more... )

so, drivers test tomorrow. im pretty nervous. i know im gonna fail the first time, but no biggie right? try try again.
ive been still hanging out with richie alot, which to me is a bad choice, but i cant help it. he gets so sad, and lovey when he thinks im really gonna leave him.  i really ment to leave him, i wanted to be completly over... but for ( Read more... )

 i really feel good about myself today. yesterday i moved back into my moms house... i decided no matter what the circumstance i will stay here until i move to florida in june. me and richie are still talking... i went over and ate there tonight and hung out with him and gavin for a little while. its much better not feeling so attatched that i have ( Read more... )

My entire life I have felt like there was a very empty spot in my heart. I was lead to believe that nobody loved me, that nobody cared about me, that everybody just wanted to see me fall on my face. It is amazing how one persons perception of the world around them can change in such an instint. Yesterday, I was a completly differant person, I let ( Read more... )

this is the best goddamned valentines day ever!!!!!!!!
richie and i broke up, 
it may just be temporary, but im not sure how he feels.
i gave him all the love i could give,
and i never got anything in return, and it pissed me off. 
in his words i turned into a major "cunt"
how disgusting is that word...???
plus im very very sick, 
thats why he was mad at ( Read more... )