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[un_crayon_rouge]

I have an appointment with an analyst next week. I'm looking forward to it. I'm so used to thinking about myself, it will be nice to do it with the assistance of a professional

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[solitary_summer]

Re. analyst... Obviously it depends on the analyst and whether you hit it off in a way that is ultimately productive, but from recent personal experience I recommend it. There were appointments where nothing much happened, or not as much as I'd have liked, occasional frustration, quite a bit of crying, and an unnecessary painful misunderstanding that I feel proud I actually fixed, instead of just leaving forever, but there were a few crucial moments that really changed my relationship with myself, and the most important thing for me is that I never felt pushed in a specific direction. Those moments felt like they came out of myself, but at the same time I know with absolute certainty I'd never have got there on my own...

Langer Rede kurzer Sinn, one of the best decisions I ever made, and it can make a difference.

And re. parents, I know (& share) the feeling, but I don't really feel guilty about it any longer. It is what it is.

[un_crayon_rouge]

Had to cancel the first appointment due to a vicious flu hitting me, got a new one next week... I'm excited about it, which is maybe not the best sign?

All my feelings of guilt about basically everything in my life is the basic issue I want to talk about - I'll let you know how that goes...

[solitary_summer]

I don't think being excited is a bad sign... At least you won't have to go through the lost & miserable stage before getting somewhere. Just, I guess, don't expect smooth sailing and linear progress all the time? It can be occasionally messy & painful on the way and still get you somewhere. Try not to feel guilty if that happens? (Speaking from experience here..) And if you feel you're getting nowhere with the analyst, don't feel guilty to change, either...

Und gute Besserung! :)