inexplicable.

[unapproachable]

I feel a little bit lost and/or sad whenever I start or finish watching a drama.

Why is that???

Also, I've been having this nagging thought of late - if I manage to survive medical school, will I be able to survive as a doctor? Or will I have to keep proving myself still?

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[tozefolk]

Great work keep it coming, best blog on earth

[anappletree]

Have you made up your mind to go to medical school? : o

Personally, I'm kinda scared to go back after I graduate - having been trained in a different system, I will be a newbie in the Singapore system. And from what I have heard, it will go against a lot of what I have been taught (the system is way too pragmatic and paternalistic). So if I go back to work, I will have to work at constantly proving myself x_x Not really looking forward to that.

[unapproachable]

lols, no. i think ultimately, it's a fun idea to keep toying with. still don't think i have the fortitude to keep it with it all - the immense responsibilities, god. i admire all those who are brave enough to plunge into it! :)

i can't really speak for the whole system but, where i am right now, i'm surrounded by bright, ambitious minds. and sometimes i feel realllyyy small in comparison, especially when i'm so tired i can't be bothered to keep working well. then i feel guilty cuz all these other people who are ~doctors~ and undoubtedly way busier than i am, are putting way more effort than me. but i think it might be that i'm in the thick of all the research goings-ons, where people are always rushing for data, rushing to churn out papers, rushing to get their studies into the clinical stage.

so maybe the life of a clinician wouldn't be that bad :p

how long more have you got? is it confirmed that you're returning here to practice?

がんばって！　：）

[anappletree]

Thanks!

I graduate in June 2012, so about a year to go : o I think I'll go back right after graduation to practice.. But I'm not so sure that I want to : p The learning environment is much better in the UK and people treat you with respect, even if you are the lowest ranking in the entire ward. Have heard some horror stories of how housemen are treated in Singapore, bleah.

I think clinical work is fun though, you get to meet a lot of different people from all walks of life : ) And I guess you feel the satisfaction of seeing your patients get better with treatment - then again also the pain if you lose someone on your shift. Not a dull day I guess hehe.

[unapproachable]

Wow, June 2012, that's fast! Still remember when you were just getting ready to start :p Man, we're all getting olddddd.

Surprising to hear that about the UK though, I'd have thought it'd be quite challenging too. Well I guess it boils down to the culture actually - Singaporeans are generally competitive (read: kiasu!) by nature, heheh.