With Eyes Wide Open

[unbreakabledawn]

So I just had a nice long talk with my mom.  It went surprisingly well.  She took it pretty much as I thought she would.  She was really nice, and then told me I was stupid and she knew what was going to happen all along :P  And its true, because I was and she did and she had told me so.  Because its true, I am too trusting, and my view of life and

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[anonymous]

I think in a way you might be right. DCP latly at least for me has been more of an excuse to hang out w/ people i enjoy the company of rather than a life changing thing. And theoretically we should be able to hang out with people outside of gaming, it might almost actually be more real b/c there isn't any in character stuff. I would however be wary of leaving dcp b/c of 'his' xyz. He's an ass and is incapable of rising above it, don't let his selfishness impact your life. I'm watching the guy across the street play with his broken mailbox, its rather amusing but that is a side point. It's also amazing how many 'friends' you have in dcp blow you off when you're not gaming *coughcoughcough* you know who i'm currently irked at, but he isn't the only one and i fully realize i've been guilty of it too in the past. I guess the road is that true friends will still hang out with you no matter how inconvenient it is for them, and the others weren't really worth your time to begin with.

Glad things with your mother went well.

[unbreakabledawn]

Its funny, because everyone in DCP who I've told that to always blames it on "his xyz", but it was never that for me. Matt was never the reason that I was or wasn't in DCP. I did it because I enjoyed hanging out with the people, and enjoyed the fantasy aspect of it. Now, I no longer enjoy the environment, and its bringing me down. And that's why I'm quitting. Because I don't want my life to be a "soap opera" as fernie so aptly labeled it. And this is how I think it needs to change, so I'm going to do it.

I'm changing myself because I want to, not because Matt is manipulating me to. That's putting way too much power in his hands than he deserves. He's not in my life any more, and he never will be again, regardless of whether or not I'm in DCP.

Anyway, its true, true friends will stick around, when I'm being myself, and when I'm doing the things I want to do and being who I want to be without trying to change that. Heh, I guess we'll see who's among that list :P

Thanks ^^