redirected energywolfpitApril 18 2006, 09:06:07 UTC
Good to see that you're brighter, perhaps we could use the excess energy as an alternative to fossil fuel or nuclear. Hmm a disconcerting picture of you on a bicycle wired to a bank of guinea pigs peddling furiously while reading ' A Dolls House ' just crept in, one cane toad too many I think..
It is however great that the water has finally slid off the ducks back, work has in the past dragged me down into the mire too. I've been accused of caring too much ( but how is that possible? )I have a twisted sense of duty to my fellow man, a malformed humanity gland and relationships and health have suffered, as I've grown older a certain secret snow has fallen on parts of my heart, callouses have formed on my conscience from frequency of use and maybe I wonder if sometimes I'm not a worse person for it...
Re: redirected energyuncle_vanyaApril 18 2006, 09:17:37 UTC
That is a very odd mental picture, especially the expressions on the guinea pigs' faces... I'd probably be reading 'The Waves' or 'To the Lighthouse', though.
My first thought was that I could use the energy for something socially constructive, like helping out in the Oxfam shop or stuffing envelopes for Amnesty, but the more I think about it, the less likely I am to do that. Maybe I'll be selfish for a change, and go and do some totally frivolous evening class. I'll have to look into that.
Re: redirected energyuncle_vanyaApril 18 2006, 10:26:06 UTC
That's a good idea. There are some books in this house that I could do without. The problem might be that I'd be honest with the customers, like Bernard Black. 'Thank you... It's dreadful, but it's quite short.'
I don't think you thoroughly "don't care". You're too decent an individual to do that. But I do know what you mean and I know the strength and invigoration that comes from that realisation. I think you've detached yourself from emotions you'd not been willing to release hold of which got in the way of fully living your life. Nevertheless, that's a very freeing epiphany you've experienced. A lot of opportunities will be opening up to you now that you've given yourself permission to just let things be.
Ideas:You're very useful at being a friend. You like books and gardening. I'm not going to fall into depending upon your interests list here. (Embalming, Evelyn Waugh...good golly, I'm having flashbacks of 'The Loved One'*giggles* Hmmm... helping out with a local literacy program, starting a community garden, read or assist with correspondence for the visually impaired or blind (I'm a reader for books on tape for the blind), be a docent in your spare time at an art
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Or write a book yourself & go on a world tour to promote it.
You could start a Lavender Conservation Society.
Campaign for "bus passes for kangas"
Brew your own martini (i actually won a prize for mine in Kuwait!)
It's highly unlikely you will be able to "stop caring"; i've been trying to harden my heart for about 45 years & not succeeded yet. You can channel it into anger though & so long as it's directed at those who truly deserve it, can be a good source of strength.
Today, I shall track down the local evening classes mob and see what they've got to offer next semester. All options are open, except singing; I can only carry a tune on a shovel, I've been assured.
A chocolate-making course might be fun; so might a sensible horticultural course. (I garden by instinct, with no real knowledge.) Or maybe cheesemaking. Blessed are the cheesemakers...
Latino dancing? I picked that up in Ecuador, where everyone salsas to everything. (There's nothing quite as amusing as watching teenage Latin Americans trying to find a way to dance to Bauhaus.)
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It is however great that the water has finally slid off the ducks back, work has in the past dragged me down into the mire too. I've been accused of caring too much ( but how is that possible? )I have a twisted sense of duty to my fellow man, a malformed humanity gland and relationships and health have suffered, as I've grown older a certain secret snow has fallen on parts of my heart, callouses have formed on my conscience from frequency of use and maybe I wonder if sometimes I'm not a worse person for it...
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My first thought was that I could use the energy for something socially constructive, like helping out in the Oxfam shop or stuffing envelopes for Amnesty, but the more I think about it, the less likely I am to do that. Maybe I'll be selfish for a change, and go and do some totally frivolous evening class. I'll have to look into that.
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Umm.You missed a spot there.
I don't think you thoroughly "don't care". You're too decent an individual to do that. But I do know what you mean and I know the strength and invigoration that comes from that realisation. I think you've detached yourself from emotions you'd not been willing to release hold of which got in the way of fully living your life. Nevertheless, that's a very freeing epiphany you've experienced. A lot of opportunities will be opening up to you now that you've given yourself permission to just let things be.
Ideas:You're very useful at being a friend. You like books and gardening.
I'm not going to fall into depending upon your interests list here.
(Embalming, Evelyn Waugh...good golly, I'm having flashbacks of 'The Loved One'*giggles* Hmmm... helping out with a local literacy program, starting a community garden, read or assist with correspondence for the visually impaired or blind (I'm a reader for books on tape for the blind), be a docent in your spare time at an art ( ... )
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All good ideas.
Or write a book yourself & go on a world tour to promote it.
You could start a Lavender Conservation Society.
Campaign for "bus passes for kangas"
Brew your own martini (i actually won a prize for mine in Kuwait!)
It's highly unlikely you will be able to "stop caring"; i've been trying to harden my heart for about 45 years & not succeeded yet. You can channel it into anger though & so long as it's directed at those who truly deserve it, can be a good source of strength.
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A chocolate-making course might be fun; so might a sensible horticultural course. (I garden by instinct, with no real knowledge.) Or maybe cheesemaking. Blessed are the cheesemakers...
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I've seen morris dancers at a gothic rock gig; that was pretty funny too.
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..anyway, I think you will remember this one!
lil xx
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