wow.
i miss the following .. it doesnt mean i want it back or that its gone.. or that i wont ever have it again, but i miss the following:
.highschool
.being really happy
.roshan and erica before they were seniors in hs
.not having to drive everywhere
.not having bills
.wanting to have bills
.saying i was drugfree
.playing football
.theodis
.skating
.laughing really hard
.sleeping all day
.leigh ann
.voicemails
.having to look forward to 11:30ish on a friday night while i'm working
.working a lot because it gave me something to do
.being motivated for school
.being nice
.being thoughtful
.being sweet
.being clever
.being me.
.real bestfriends
.roshan and erica
.puppy love/infatuation
.being little
.not wanting about sex
.being shy
.when crying actually matterd
.dan
.cassie
.friday nights at my apartment
.working out
.dreaming
.the way leigh ann said "bye"
.the way erica made every little thing mean something
.being innocent
.being special
.not being shallow
.being humble
.not being stuck up
.not being an asshole
.being able to write how i feel
.not having to try to get good grades in school
.computers before windows 3.11
.reading books
.watching movies
.having conversations where i had to think
.julie fucking ricks
.chris pham
.christina
.afi
.having blue hair
.northstar
.jason being in further seems forever
.going to shows every week
.good shows coming to houston
."emo" not being on mtv
.my grandfather
.not being selfish
.roshan
.riveroaks theatre
.eating donuts off the floor downtown
.box sleding
.creative plans to do things other than get high
im tired, goodnight.