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I'm not entirely certain how it is I found myself back in the policital mess of this group after last time, but here I am.
Don't know that I want to be Max right now, there are like 3 people at the moment not gunning for him. Fair enough, he's screwing up, but it's feeling a bit like a witch hunt.
My problem with the man is that he doesn't seem to realise any of this. He's got a very, very tough meeting on Wednesday and I don't know if he's prepared for it, which leaves us with two possibilities. A co-producer (wouldn't like to be the poor schmuck thrown into that mess), or Kenny taking executive control. (which frankly, would cause me considerable distress, but thats not my call)
I, on the other hand, have now completely scaled back my role in the show to it's original job description - vocal coach. I'm doing the teaching I said I would, not the kindof weird co-music-director thing that was going on before. It's Tristan's job, having me in the room at the same time is simply undermining her; because the cast doesn't know who exactly they're taking their orders from. Particularly when I'm unable to stop myself from yelling at them when they're not watching Tristan.
Grease is dead and gone. I dont care about it enough to fight for it. Firstly, I picked (well, actually John and Tristan suggested it - Irony much?) it, because the society needs a show which will bring in people. Which Sweeny will do fine, so thats all good. I however, have no special desire to Music Direct anything, I'm a singer, I want to be on the stage not in front of it. Plus it's been brought to my attention here at the con that I'm spending an inordinate amount of time on what is really a hobby, (MUSE that is) at the expense of my professional career - which is enormously more important. For this reason I seriously doubt I'll be auditioning for Sweeny - that and the fact there's nothing in Sweeny I can see myself doing, and I passed the point years ago where i'd be content with a chorus part.
I guess the reason I didn't want to fight on for Grease is because I knew I'd lose. Not because we're any less competant (Max aside: - and don't even get me started on that, having him as the director was NOT my idea. He sort of steamrolled himself into the role), but because I thruthfully didn't care to anywhere near the same degree. For kenny, Roman and John MUSE (along with suds) is, at the moment, their main avenue of performance - it's not even close to being mine. In this next week i have a concert prac, two gigs and an audition. (Plus I'm finding time to teach 6 people from the cast.). MUSE has somehow become massively important in my life since Pirates, and from a career standpoint thats stupid. It's great for my social life, but it's eating up time left, right and center.
Anyway, to get back to the original point, I realised the other day that the politics involved in being on the production team, exec or generally the 'elite' of MUSE society (there's about 12 of us) are really irritating, stupid, and not worth the time. Putting in all this time and effort into dealing with the politics of an amatuer society, a good deal of whom either hate me, are on a power trip, or have vastly unrealistic views of their own performance ability, is just blatantly silly.
So I'm pulling back. Keeping up with the social acitivity that I love, but pulling back my job to its original description - which is a vocal coach under Tristans direction. Meaning I shalln't be in on production decisions, shalln't be involved in cast discipline or conducting. I'll be teaching vocals - which is my job, and I most certainly shall no longer be involved in then internal struggles going on in the society..
Don't know that I want to be Max right now, there are like 3 people at the moment not gunning for him. Fair enough, he's screwing up, but it's feeling a bit like a witch hunt.
My problem with the man is that he doesn't seem to realise any of this. He's got a very, very tough meeting on Wednesday and I don't know if he's prepared for it, which leaves us with two possibilities. A co-producer (wouldn't like to be the poor schmuck thrown into that mess), or Kenny taking executive control. (which frankly, would cause me considerable distress, but thats not my call)
I, on the other hand, have now completely scaled back my role in the show to it's original job description - vocal coach. I'm doing the teaching I said I would, not the kindof weird co-music-director thing that was going on before. It's Tristan's job, having me in the room at the same time is simply undermining her; because the cast doesn't know who exactly they're taking their orders from. Particularly when I'm unable to stop myself from yelling at them when they're not watching Tristan.
Grease is dead and gone. I dont care about it enough to fight for it. Firstly, I picked (well, actually John and Tristan suggested it - Irony much?) it, because the society needs a show which will bring in people. Which Sweeny will do fine, so thats all good. I however, have no special desire to Music Direct anything, I'm a singer, I want to be on the stage not in front of it. Plus it's been brought to my attention here at the con that I'm spending an inordinate amount of time on what is really a hobby, (MUSE that is) at the expense of my professional career - which is enormously more important. For this reason I seriously doubt I'll be auditioning for Sweeny - that and the fact there's nothing in Sweeny I can see myself doing, and I passed the point years ago where i'd be content with a chorus part.
I guess the reason I didn't want to fight on for Grease is because I knew I'd lose. Not because we're any less competant (Max aside: - and don't even get me started on that, having him as the director was NOT my idea. He sort of steamrolled himself into the role), but because I thruthfully didn't care to anywhere near the same degree. For kenny, Roman and John MUSE (along with suds) is, at the moment, their main avenue of performance - it's not even close to being mine. In this next week i have a concert prac, two gigs and an audition. (Plus I'm finding time to teach 6 people from the cast.). MUSE has somehow become massively important in my life since Pirates, and from a career standpoint thats stupid. It's great for my social life, but it's eating up time left, right and center.
Anyway, to get back to the original point, I realised the other day that the politics involved in being on the production team, exec or generally the 'elite' of MUSE society (there's about 12 of us) are really irritating, stupid, and not worth the time. Putting in all this time and effort into dealing with the politics of an amatuer society, a good deal of whom either hate me, are on a power trip, or have vastly unrealistic views of their own performance ability, is just blatantly silly.
So I'm pulling back. Keeping up with the social acitivity that I love, but pulling back my job to its original description - which is a vocal coach under Tristans direction. Meaning I shalln't be in on production decisions, shalln't be involved in cast discipline or conducting. I'll be teaching vocals - which is my job, and I most certainly shall no longer be involved in then internal struggles going on in the society..