Let Me Be the One Who Treats You Right
Title: Let Me Be the One Who Treats You Right
Author: unconditional_w
Pairing: Naomi/Emily
Summary: What she’s really trying to say.
Rating: R for language.
Disclaimer: Not my universe, not my characters. The dialogue is just too badass to not write about.
But on the flipside; we could be just right.
- Last Person by Jenny Owen Youngs
When Naomi goes uppity as always in class and declares People tell lies about me, what she’s trying to say is People tend to make up stories about me, which I fucking hate, but there’s one in particular I didn’t bother to correct.
When Naomi asks Why not? and Emily for the first (but not last) time stands up to her and responds with a weak I don’t know. Because..., what she’s trying to say is Because I want you to stay. Isn’t that enough?
When Emily says I felt like fucking kissing someone, what she’s trying to say is I’ve wanted to fucking kiss her for years and that night I had decided I would either have to go ahead and do it or explode from all the fucking feelings altogether.
When Emily’s on a high of being so fruitful with selling Thomas’s stash and lets her guard slip up, causing her to weakly apologize and Naomi sneers with an Yeah, me too, what she’s trying to say is You fucked up my life that night in more ways than one, Fitch, I don’t need you admitting to something I’ll think about tonight, too.
When Naomi herself is trying to sort out the sense of the situation and Emily tries to shed some light on it by admitting I asked her to invite you, what she’s trying to say is I asked Panda to invite you. I asked Cook to invite you. I asked Thomas to invite you. G...get it? I ask them to invite you.
When Emily’s tested the waters and decided to go for it and deal with the consequences later and Naomi can do nothing but respond with a soft it’s only the drugs, right?, what she’s really trying to say is Oh. Oh well then. That was...very very nice. Let’s not...let’s not dwell on why. Kiss me again.
When Naomi’s going about her daily business and Emily decides to tag along with a tongue-in-cheek and genuine I-don’t-ever-want-to-shut-my-mouth-ism, what she’s trying to say is I’ve spent a long time thinking about your mouth.
When she’s halfway down the hallway and she sucks up the rest of her courage and bursts back into her room with a Just so you know; my first thought when I see you is not I want to fuck that girl, what she’s trying to say is You’re arrogant; I fucking get it. But believe it or not, I don’t worship you the way you think I do. I just want to spend some time with you because I don’t really know you very well, but hey. Maybe I just really like you. Maybe that’s why I kissed you in the first place.
When Naomi’s taking the word not rubbing off her cheek as a stupid, stupid sign and calls her up and says Anywhere, what she’s trying to say is Christ. Fuck. Shit. Anywhere with you is better than somewhere with anyone else.
When Naomi says Don’t Look and Emily looks anyway, what she’s really trying to say is I respect that you don’t want me to but I’ve been dreaming of this, of me, of you, of us by this lake, for far too long. I need to soak in this moment, Naomi Campbell, because I am so taken with you, and have spent so much time looking, I cannot not look at you with your shirt off.
When Naomi’s on the brink of letting all this shit fall behind her and all Emily needs to do is to bring her back is the tiniest admittance and she squeezes her against the lockers with a desperate I can’t stand it, what she’s trying to say is I can’t stand this stupid, stupid power you have over me. It’s crushing me and killing me and filling me all at once for fuck’s sake I have no idea what to do with myself.
When Naomi’s got more than one thing on her mind and tries to get Emily off with a rude Could you just mind your own business for one second, what she’s trying to say is The truth gets me sent to jail and losing you and yeah, to be honest, the latter is what concerns me.
When it all comes crashing down and Naomi’s sobbing rivals Emily’s when she whispers We were special into the wind, and what she’s really trying to say is We were special. We still are. But now for a horrible, horrible reason.
When Emily tackles Naomi into the kiddie pool, what she’s really trying to say is I fucking hate that you pushed me into the lake, watched me test the waters, then shakily jumped in after me. This time you’re going in first, whether you want to or not.
When Naomi’s a little high anyway and tries to lighten the situation with I’m such a tit and Emily mumbles Tell me about it, what she’s really trying to say is I’ve always fucking known it anyway, and you stupidly led me to believe you could change for me.
When Mandy’s being sweet and kisses her and Emily can barely bring herself to open her eyes and settles with a firm Don’t, what she’s trying to say is I can’t give you anything. I gave it all to her when I was ten.
When they’re resting for the day and Naomi’s so close, so close again, Emily sighs a bit before saying I love you, what she’s trying to say is I do. I always have. And clearly I always will.
When Naomi can’t keep talking because it’s all coming down too hard and she finishes with a strangled I love you so much and it’s killing me, what she’s trying to say is It has always been killing me. Breaking me. Making me.