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Dec 05, 2006 20:47

Knowing that I’m childless one kid proposed to stay with me tonight as Santa Claus is coming only to houses where children are ( Read more... )

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nitaigouranga December 5 2006, 21:00:29 UTC
"I want to hide my self somewhere in India… somewhere far away…make me very very small"

yes yes yes yes exACTly!!!! i knoooooooooow, i've been thinking just that, believe me!

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undercover108 December 6 2006, 00:42:42 UTC
Dear, I do believe you! It seems that we have a few things in common :)
(I’m not aloud to mention here the red shoes … the boys would kill me…hm..long story)

Hiding ha?!… I could baby-sit your kids for two weeks and you could go and hide your self. After that we could make a pizza party and go dancing. What you think?

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nitaigouranga December 6 2006, 06:53:32 UTC
hiding plus pizza plus dancing is a damn near perfect plan, in deed if there would be extra cheese and then extra extra cheese on the pizza? and it was maybe possible to dance to some quite embarrasing 80's music? I would say we'd nailed it!

Happy now :-)

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undercover108 December 6 2006, 22:22:49 UTC
Extra cheese? You read my mind ha?

Yes, now I'm happy and hungry!

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vasudeva_dasa December 5 2006, 21:09:26 UTC
Oh didi, I am sorry to hear you have to go trough all thes epainful moments. I know exactly how you feel since we are going trough many same things. I also can't believe how my best friend / buddy / partner / soulmate became a stranger from one day to the next. It is surreal and very sad.

And than my 2nd point. When will you start believing NOTHING is wrong with you? We won't find anything we'll dislike once we get to know the real Gaura. Please believe in yourself and trust that you are truly worthy of love and happiness. You know our mantra, believe it!!! I don't want you crawling away, I won't you to stand tall and show proudly that you are a lotus between ordinary flowers, because you are!!!

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undercover108 December 6 2006, 00:35:59 UTC
It is obvious that Vasu is one of my favorite Angel which I tricked ( ... )

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vasudeva_dasa December 6 2006, 09:39:28 UTC
Actually, again the same thing happened to me. Juan was also a very sweet and lovely person and I can't say anything bad about him. And somehow he decided that he didn't wanna stay with me. Of course I asked myself what is wrong with me and why I am not good enough? And I also wanna know short-comings and learn from them. But I came to the conclusion that I had given all I had in the relationship and even had been too easy. Maybe sometimes we have to accept that the fault wasn't with us, but with them. Maybe they didn't have the peace in their heart to stay with 1 person, maybe they missed something inside of them, which they think they will find with someone else...though the void might be inside of themselves.

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undercover108 December 6 2006, 22:38:44 UTC

Yes, maybe there is no body to blame. It is not about blame. Just… it is easier for me to accept and understand if I blame my self. It comes so naturally… seems so logical that he left because I’m a bad girl. 1+1=2
But most probably it is not about bad or good, right or wrong… and on the end, I don’t have to understand everything… rather to trust. “ Das Vertrauen “!

Thank you my brother. . . I will keep our mantra (code) in mind…

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keshavadasa December 6 2006, 07:52:05 UTC
for starters, i love you as you are so don't even think we'll drop you!
second, just be who you are ( in wich i think you are doing a pretty good job as you show alot of yourself without yourself probably realizing it ;-) If you are who you are people will love you instantly as you people respect honesty. People who do leave then just weren't meant to be with you. I know this sounds a bit harsh but i don't know how to put it in any other form. You're such a wonderful person Gaura, please accept yourself and see it (i'm talking from own experiance here haha)
love you my friend :-)

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undercover108 December 6 2006, 22:50:16 UTC
Keshava, you are just so lovely and sweet. Another Angel in my life which I tricked!! :)
Thanks for your words. I do understand you… and probably I would say the same thing to somebody else in situation like mine. But when it is about me I freeze my intelligence… and lose objective picture… Can't see the forest through the trees

Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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haribolo108 December 6 2006, 10:05:51 UTC
Do you realise you cant run faster than us?? and even if you could, we would catch you up! bottom line is we're not going anywhere :) so there, you have to put up with us forever! (i dont just mean this life time either). perhaps it's no coincidence that we are now in your life when you need it. But dont be illusioned your in our life for the equal reason!

I know it's difficult for you right now, but each day that passes is another day closer before you get to India! Krishna is calling you to his sacred home and he will take care of you himself!

We love you didi!
Radhe Radhe!!

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undercover108 December 6 2006, 23:01:00 UTC
And I love you too my third Angel!
"you have to put up with us forever!"
O.k. I actually just wanted to hear this.
I think I will continue to write miserable letters just to keep on getting your reassurance and love. Am I clever or what?
( Don’t answer on this one… Just hypothetical ironical question!!!!)
;-)

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