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[undergoingrage]

I don't post very often. I know this.

I would describe myself as more of a private person than as a social or very sharing one. Even so where I could say that I'm possibly developing to be even more private to myself. I do have my own plans and ideas and just thoughts. But I tend to think of them with myself instead of typing them out here, as of

Comments

[lady_sesshomaru]

dude, post FULL of meaning! i think this makes up for all those times you havent posted lol and yes, i did actually take the time to read all of it *which i dont do for a lot of people when they write long post* but you really did have a lot to say so i just thought i would let you know, i am listening =] theres no real responce to your post i can come up with but a blank stare and a big smile so here goes:

o_o... ^___^

i'm sorry that you dont get to see ted that often. and i hope you did at least enjoy your time up there with him. you guys are super cute.

[lady_sesshomaru]

[[p.s. the blank stare was me reading it and teh big smile was me fitting it all together... just so you know and didnt take the blank stare negatively]]

[undergoingrage]

heh, sorry, you really didn't have to read it since it did end up REALLY long and confusing and everything @_@ but yeah, guess you took a peek into my soul! XO as I kid myself o_O;;

yeah, I did like getting to see him and everything. Lol.. I got this picture from his mom for Christmas, since I never got it before.. it's from his graduation if that's not obvious, but I like it other than that I look like I was running beforehand or something like that. (don't look as bad in it because I took a picture of the picture for here so it blurred the nasty hair so it didn't look as nasty)

[lady_sesshomaru]

nah its cool i would like to take a "peek into your soul" =D since we barely ever talk anymore @_@ and it gives me something to do other than play DDR *i'm actually just tired right now ^^;;*

well its a really cute picture =] you dont look like you were running lol

[roxy_r]

that is a very pretty picture of you two.

sarah...im sorry ive been selfish, and ive accepted the fact that i am.i should appriciate the people who want to be around me, but instead i push them away bc of one or two little things that bother me about them.... im not there for you guys like i want to be, bc i forget, but the thing is, i shouldnt, you esp. have always been there for me.

i read the whole post ^_^ and im glad i did, but sad too in a way, bc its made me realize and think about all the stupid crap im doing and how we're all kinda drifting apart, our "group" was inseperable..what happened? ::sigh:: miss you and love you lots!

[undergoingrage]

I wasn't calling you selfish o_O

and I understand about things that end up bothering, even if you really like the people/person. Seriously, I get that. But it's fine, you're up there and have your own things you have to do too, so it's not like you've pushed me away. We just don't talk too much anymore.

but also, it's bound to be where all of us drift a bit. Considering how after this year it's a "AND THEY'RE OFF!" theory of the start of the races. Right now all of us are going to be busy and we'll be even busier after high school. Doesn't mean we'll NEVER speak again or anything.

[roxy_r]

oh, lol i didnt think you were calling me selfish, it was a self realized thing after reading the post XD yeah i draw alot of weird stuff out of the things i read lol

but i just dont want to end up like my mom who actually just had a get together with her friends yesterday, where they only see eachother like once every two years, i dont need to see everyone, just the few that really have been there, that i really care about like you, becca, and chrisina. yeah..idk i guess in a way im resenting growing up XD

[mdnite_skys]

you don't post much, but when you do, i love it

everytime you have given me any kind of advice, it's always been incredibly useful

i completely agree with everything you wrote. whether you cared to know that or not, i just felt the need to tell you

you and ted are adorable

[undergoingrage]

well I'm glad to know that my advice is useful. I just was having the thoughts of that with some of the times I've given it, I've hoped it hasn't been the complete word of what to do instead of just something to help think on things.

I just end up having certain times of where I can type out some of the things I think of. Imagine what my mind must be like all the time if this is one time :P (ha, again kidding myself, but yeah)

and thank you ^^; I find him more adorable/funny

[matt_is_4_eyes]

Yep, I miss him too. And I'm sorry if I'm one of the people you were mentioning in your little jiggy up there... :/ I know I've been dramatic and shit on here... but it's tough when this kid thats obsessed with me is suicidal? I dont know... it's probably not about me anyway! I was like "Well, no one ELSE is talking about relationship problems..." then im like "she has more friends than just MY friends!" lol...

[matt_is_4_eyes]

Come to think of it... I may not even be on your friends list! Maybe you cant even SEE my journal!!!

[undergoingrage]

oh, no not really. I seriously wasn't alluding to anyone in particular up there. There WERE examples in my head, but again, just mixed things.

and heh sorry ^^;; actually I can see your journal... I just always forget to add you. I'll add you right now x_x;; considering I end up reading your stuff anyway too XD

[bessydevlin]

Hi. Lots of love. Awesome post. Gotta go. Tired. Good night.

^_^