I've been talking to Derek for a long time.
Best friend ever.
And I"m telling him about the video thing.
That I told Janet.
And he felt sick.
But I feel sicker I think.
I'm gonna tell him what happened with Dave Higg..

I dont know why certain things choose certain times to come out,
but they just do.
And tonight's the night.

And yes.
That one entry..about the thing I do.
I'm suprised no one has said anything to me about it.
I"m not upset no one said anything about it.
Just suprised. That's all.

"thought she'd deserved no less than she'd give...we'll see how brave you are"I'm having some of the best conversation in the last few days than I've had in a looong time. It's actually really nice too, when I guy can keep up a conversation with you and actually talk about things like books and music (but not in a 'i know this guy and that guy' ( Read more... )

A couple things ( Read more... )

Well, that was one of the nicest conversations I've had in a long time ( Read more... )

If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?
(Now post this in your LJ and find out what others' would be.)

Things are just getting a little bit too weird.
So many things are taking on new dynamics and it's really starting to freak me out.
I hope I'm not starting to go crazy again.
I dont' think I am, I really hope I'm not.

So, we're talking now.
And working it out.
And I"m proud of myself for NOT just saying fuck 'em and listening to what he has to say and accepting an apology.
Last year I would've went to his house and made him feel like a worthless human being.
But I didn't.
I took a time out. And calmed down and listened.
And it's working for me.

YOU TRY AND TELL ME I'M PUTTING MYSELF ON A PEDESTAL?
YOU THINK I LIKE LIVING LIKE THIS?
YOU GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKER.
GO FUCK YOUR OWN STUPID 20YR OLD DICK.

Being mentally ill is hard.
Thing is, when do you draw the line?
When do you say fuck 'em cause it's not worth it,
and when do you educate them on the matter?