Strange how sometimes all you want is some affection. I'm not talking boyfriend/girlfriend affection, but just a big hug from a few good friends. I went from wanting almost no human contact to almost craving it sometimes. Life is confusing.

"Everyone knows not to stare into the sun. It’s something your mother tells you when you’re a kid. 'Don’t look at the sun or you’ll go blind.' But sometimes you want to understand something so badly that you’ll risk going blind for just a glimpse of what it all might be about ( Read more... )

I'll never understand how someone can make me so happy and cause so much pain all at the same time without even knowing it. The same person that makes me smile for absolutely no reason makes it hard to sleep at night because my head won't shut up. The part that confuses me most is how I can stand by and let them move in on somebody else and be ok ( Read more... )

It seems I don't have a valentine this year so I decided I'm accepting applications.

Will you be my valentine?

Sometimes it's amazing how quickly something or someone can leave your head and the problems with it/them just disappear like a ball after a home run. Amazing, even though school is stressful as all hell, I feel a thousand times better with this not on my mind anymore. I don't even know what did it, but I'm grateful.

So me and megan were talking about how over-active my imagination is, among other things and was talking to me about this test her friends psychologist gave her to test her control over her mental processes ( Read more... )

Somewhere along the road I lost my way. I forgot what the point was and created a new one which I don't like at all. Sometimes in a new environment you forget who you are, I guess I forgot to continue thinking and just went with the crowd, let everything just continue in the direction it was going without second-guessing myself. So I've gotta ( Read more... )

They say people are most honest when they've nothing to lose, but how long can you be content with that honesty and how much someone will actually know? I had a moment of complete honesty last night, an open book, and now I'm scared of the damage I may have caused. I know I am insane, but i'd rather that it wasn't well known. So how do you turn ( Read more... )

I've noticed as each day goes by no matter how screwed up things get and no matter what has happened, I'm happy with my live as it is. Though I've also noticed that my past is slipping away and no matter how hard I try to hold onto and how much I tighten my grip it is still slipping through my buttery fingers ( Read more... )

So while I try and avoid any form of a relationship anyway I can without hurting anyone, I run into a brick wall. I don't know what I want, but I've a feeling this next term is going to prove to be a rough one regarding the opposite sex. I can't get over my best friend on campus and he's already taken away my chance to avoid him for awhile until ( Read more... )