its been a pretty boring week. but actually today wasn't very boring, my dad got in an accident, which really sucks cuz its the 2nd work van he has gone through. and he already had back problems before this, which will be even worse now. but luckily he is ok, and it wasn't his fault. i was actually watching the real world last night, which made me ( Read more... )

excuse my last entry...i was a lil stressed.

but its two years today! how exciting...:o) we're dressing up and going out to eat and catching a flick. then who knows what...just like old times. ah. i love you.

less than one month until hood :o)

i hate this fucking town so much. i cant wait to go back to hood, just one month. i hate people that make up dumb shit, and even get your boyfriend to not believe you anymore. oh yeh i forgot that im controlling too. as if i haven't given in enough. i know i haven't been the best girlfriend, but i have definitely made an improvement, thats more ( Read more... )

its been a while since ive typed up an entry but to sum it up....my summer sucks. all ive done is work and see brian (haha, that doesnt suck of course, 23 months <3) but it has been pretty freaking boring. now i get to start on my volleyball conditioning, which is even better...but i have been playing volleyball in baker park every wednesday, so im ( Read more... )

Empty spaces fill me up with holes ( Read more... )

u know that lump in your throat that you feel everytime your about to burst into tears? i have that feeling all the fucking time now. everytime im not keeping myself busy with work or friends, which has only been about a day, i get that feeling. i cant even listen to a goddamn love song without wanting to fucking bawl. i hate it. i hate my fucking ( Read more... )

i hate my life. everything about it sucks. everything. im so alone. and its really fucking sad. the one thing i thought could make my summer even somewhat ok is out of my life for good. reason? there is no reason. just that im a bad girlfriend. if it wasnt for me acting stupid all the time he would still be here. he would still want to be in a ( Read more... )

as i said in entry 2005-03-29 22:41:00,

fuck you for doing this.

hell yeah baby! im stayin in the honors program at hood...i mananged to come out with a 3.07 this semester which makes me have a 3.02 overall for the year, boy was i close. i did very well in the rest of my classes, which makes me happy! i cant wait for next year it will be soooo much fun!!

this will probably be the worst summer in the record of summers in my life. i just looked at my fucking grades and got a damn C is statistics, i should have known it was coming, i hate that fucking class and that man.
on a lighter note, my boyfriend actually stood me up tonight, my own boyfriend. i must be doing something majorly wrong for that to ( Read more... )