subjects on your birtday are always lame and say the word birthday in it.
dear journal:
i am a year older than from the last time we talked. and it feels pretty fucking depressing. 17 years robbed from my eyes. It was six-thousand two-hundred and five days ago since i have been brought into this place devastating history and future. With straving children and straining familes. With drugs it creates destroy our hesitant nation. They decided to name it the United States of America, or thats what they named it here. Each and every day i have spent on this earth I have began to realize I have god to thank for it all. Through the good through the bad. From the depressing days to where I can do nothing more then fall to my knees at night and just cry myself to sleep, or for the days I just can doing nothing but sit here and smile and enjoy life to the fullest. Im high, im drunk. and yes, I do believe that a lot of these things are corrupting kids. And that makes me a hypocrit, but im one of the few that will admitt it. I believe and love jesus christ with all my heart and soul. Without him I wouldn't be here right now. I dont believe in fate or destiny or that there is some plan or set out tracks im suppose to live my life on. If that were true then you have no way to prove yourself to stand by either Lucifer or Jesus. Im just writing random thoughts as I go along. For the sad and even bitter nights I cried b/c i lost sara and i would be grasping my pillow at night for me letting her go, I still thank god for that day. Everyday I have had on this earth has chizeled, shaped, and formed me to the person I am today. I could look in the mirrior on my worst looking days and be happy with who I am.. I am pleased with the person I am turning out from a small teen to an younger adult. I have no clue where i will end up 5 years or the person I will be come but I can say as of this day I like who I am as a person. I mean I have A nice girl I will hopefully start dating and im going to spend time with her on monday and everything will be wonderful and turn me into a diffrent or better person. Every person you meet changed your life, wether its bumping into them on accident at the mall, or best friends since the day you could say "sup?" Im not sure where all this is going or if I even said remotly closed to what I wanted to say. But as of right now, life is pretty fucking good.
i am a year older than from the last time we talked. and it feels pretty fucking depressing. 17 years robbed from my eyes. It was six-thousand two-hundred and five days ago since i have been brought into this place devastating history and future. With straving children and straining familes. With drugs it creates destroy our hesitant nation. They decided to name it the United States of America, or thats what they named it here. Each and every day i have spent on this earth I have began to realize I have god to thank for it all. Through the good through the bad. From the depressing days to where I can do nothing more then fall to my knees at night and just cry myself to sleep, or for the days I just can doing nothing but sit here and smile and enjoy life to the fullest. Im high, im drunk. and yes, I do believe that a lot of these things are corrupting kids. And that makes me a hypocrit, but im one of the few that will admitt it. I believe and love jesus christ with all my heart and soul. Without him I wouldn't be here right now. I dont believe in fate or destiny or that there is some plan or set out tracks im suppose to live my life on. If that were true then you have no way to prove yourself to stand by either Lucifer or Jesus. Im just writing random thoughts as I go along. For the sad and even bitter nights I cried b/c i lost sara and i would be grasping my pillow at night for me letting her go, I still thank god for that day. Everyday I have had on this earth has chizeled, shaped, and formed me to the person I am today. I could look in the mirrior on my worst looking days and be happy with who I am.. I am pleased with the person I am turning out from a small teen to an younger adult. I have no clue where i will end up 5 years or the person I will be come but I can say as of this day I like who I am as a person. I mean I have A nice girl I will hopefully start dating and im going to spend time with her on monday and everything will be wonderful and turn me into a diffrent or better person. Every person you meet changed your life, wether its bumping into them on accident at the mall, or best friends since the day you could say "sup?" Im not sure where all this is going or if I even said remotly closed to what I wanted to say. But as of right now, life is pretty fucking good.