i just need a little of your time to say the words I never said
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I'm listening to Maroon 5's "Little of Your Time" right now, hence the title. Adore this song.
But. I need to get some things off my chest. Otherwise I'll keep thinking about them.
My sister got kicked out of college today. She failed her summer math class, and her average is around 1.5, so they kicked her out.
Yeah. All hell broke loose.
What I hate is the sound of people yelling. I HATE it beyond all reason. I don't even need to hear the words being said; I just hear the sound of yelling, and it immediately makes me dispirited. My mom and sister were SCREAMING at each other for the majority of the morning. It's most likely because I've been a bit on the emotional side for a couple days, but when I locked myself in my room and put on my iPod to drown them out, I started crying. Which wasn't good, because my friend called and I had to put on a good face and answer the phone. Except I couldn't do it. I had to move the phone away because the tears would NOT stop, so I weakly told my friend I'd call her back.
But then I had to go get my school schedule, so I waited until my tears dried and my eyes stopped being red and finally went up to my mom, telling her I was ready to go. We did, and then I compared schedules with my friend who called earlier and let her borrow my copy of Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer (HI, really awesome book, go read the Twilight series NOW), and when I explained what happened earlier, my eyes teared up again. Luckily, my friend is really understanding and changed the subject, pretending not to notice. Which I like. I tend to cry easily (though I've been better about it lately), and it just makes it worse when people make a HUGE deal out of it.
I thought it'd be better when I got home because my sister left for a while, but when she got back they got right back into it. So I went back to listening to music and starting crying again, then just took a nap in my room. Sleeping is like a defense mechanism for me, I dunno.
I really don't want to go through a day like this again. It was just so damn depressing. I'm worried for my sister, but her freaking out on us makes my sympathy diminish. I get it's stressful, yeah, and she's in a real bad spot. And I know that my mom was being condescending and actually told her at one point, "I told you so." They just both needed to handle it better than they did and grow up. But my sister also needs to get her act together and DEAL.
The next time they're screaming, I'm going to leave the house without a word and go to my friend's house. Because I can't help anybody when they're both acting like that, so I'm not going to put myself in the middle of it.
Pah. My eyes are watering as I write this. Today, besides all that, was good though. I talked to raebb4ever and shellstheboss, and they cheered me up considerably. ^^ I also got to talk to a friend of mine who I used to roleplay Kingdom Hearts with, which was a BLAST. So I'm happy. I just don't know what the hell my sister is gonna do now.
I'm listening to Maroon 5's "Little of Your Time" right now, hence the title. Adore this song.
But. I need to get some things off my chest. Otherwise I'll keep thinking about them.
My sister got kicked out of college today. She failed her summer math class, and her average is around 1.5, so they kicked her out.
Yeah. All hell broke loose.
What I hate is the sound of people yelling. I HATE it beyond all reason. I don't even need to hear the words being said; I just hear the sound of yelling, and it immediately makes me dispirited. My mom and sister were SCREAMING at each other for the majority of the morning. It's most likely because I've been a bit on the emotional side for a couple days, but when I locked myself in my room and put on my iPod to drown them out, I started crying. Which wasn't good, because my friend called and I had to put on a good face and answer the phone. Except I couldn't do it. I had to move the phone away because the tears would NOT stop, so I weakly told my friend I'd call her back.
But then I had to go get my school schedule, so I waited until my tears dried and my eyes stopped being red and finally went up to my mom, telling her I was ready to go. We did, and then I compared schedules with my friend who called earlier and let her borrow my copy of Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer (HI, really awesome book, go read the Twilight series NOW), and when I explained what happened earlier, my eyes teared up again. Luckily, my friend is really understanding and changed the subject, pretending not to notice. Which I like. I tend to cry easily (though I've been better about it lately), and it just makes it worse when people make a HUGE deal out of it.
I thought it'd be better when I got home because my sister left for a while, but when she got back they got right back into it. So I went back to listening to music and starting crying again, then just took a nap in my room. Sleeping is like a defense mechanism for me, I dunno.
I really don't want to go through a day like this again. It was just so damn depressing. I'm worried for my sister, but her freaking out on us makes my sympathy diminish. I get it's stressful, yeah, and she's in a real bad spot. And I know that my mom was being condescending and actually told her at one point, "I told you so." They just both needed to handle it better than they did and grow up. But my sister also needs to get her act together and DEAL.
The next time they're screaming, I'm going to leave the house without a word and go to my friend's house. Because I can't help anybody when they're both acting like that, so I'm not going to put myself in the middle of it.
Pah. My eyes are watering as I write this. Today, besides all that, was good though. I talked to raebb4ever and shellstheboss, and they cheered me up considerably. ^^ I also got to talk to a friend of mine who I used to roleplay Kingdom Hearts with, which was a BLAST. So I'm happy. I just don't know what the hell my sister is gonna do now.