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im so confused these days i dont know if i should be laying on the couch all day crying
or if i should pretend im happy and go out with my friends
of course they make me happy, but real happiness lasts longer than just a few hours with friends
feeling absolutley empty the moment you get home isnt
i dont "cry myself to sleep" but thats definately when i have my worst feelings.
it takes forever to sleep, after hours of just thinking
and thinking of how horrible i feel
its like a constant dread
i dont know how to stop it