no money ( Read more... )

i finally cleaned my room and it is  sssssssooooooooooooooooo nice. i actually want to be in it now and it doesnt make me want to die ( Read more... )

today ended up being much more productive than it began, though it began wonderfully. it was beautiful when i went outside and i drove around and took pictures and collected leaves for my journal and im excited to get the roll i just finished developed. im hoping ive gotten better at holga-ing because it is a dark dark magic that no science can ( Read more... )

yesterday i voted, as most did. and quite honestly it was depressing. my heart sank the moment i looked at the screen and saw 6 party candidate teams and felt that my vote would be wasted if i voted for whom i truly believed to be the best candidate. 2 parties is not a choice. two parties is bad or worse. i am relieved that obama won but am far ( Read more... )

im not going to washington. im not seeing kidcrash. im going to have the house to myself for thanksgiving but not throwing a show because krasner is having one the same weekend and no one will come. i dont have anywhere to go for thanksgiving and no one to spend it with. i dont care. i do care. i want to leave ( Read more... )

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funnny ffunnny funny
should i feel guilty for loving this so much?
i don't. why should i?
i can deal any other way, i'll still be oh sooo alliiiiiiiiiiiive BUT
this is my favorite.

im going to washington and im gonna stay for like 3 weeks and its gonna be so so so wonderful and im going to spend thanksgiving with my ( Read more... )

i dont know what i want. i find myself wishing i had some sort of direction. im sad because i want to leave. im sad because i dont want to leave. i feel like im just kidding myself when i try to be optomistic sometimes.the only thing i can certainly say i want is the one thing i cant have and quite possibly may never have because i am DOOMED to ( Read more... )

i keep forgetting thanksgiving is a month away. i want it to be now. no. i want to leave now. i want to see marcus, i want to see the west coast. i want to be doing something different. i want to take someone with me. i want to take everyone with me. i dont want to leave my friends and the comforts of familiarity and home. but i have to do it alone ( Read more... )

i lost my job yesterday. i havent decided how much i really care yet. im kinda glad because id been there a long time even though i got shitty pay. i just dont think i wouldve ever left otherwise. on the other hand im not gonna have a steady cash flow. if i run out and need money i think im just gonna go to labor ready or smt. im still planning on ( Read more... )

tonight was really great. we played our show with algernon and for once pretty much NOTHING went wrong. i broke my sticks but fuck it who cares?! we got to use this other bands equipment and i kinda felt bad but man that shit was nice. the drum kit sounded so good and the big a custom ride accompanied my crash quite nicely. so anyways, played great ( Read more... )