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[united_rule]

Well i feel shit..........My fiancee doesn't trust me enough to tell me anything. Is n't marriage based on trust?

Great, well I don't understand why she cant tell me.

maybe I'm only scared I am going to lose her but i just was her to tell me.

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[k8i_chaser_gryf]

Oliver you're not going to lose me. I'm in love with you, and I'm not letting go.

I trust you more than anyone else in the world. You know that.

Isn't marriage supposed to be based on trust?

That was a cheap shot Oliver, and you know it.

[united_rule]

Yea I know it was a cheap shot but isn't it?

But you could just tell me, I would tell you anything, why can't you just tell me this one thing.

[k8i_chaser_gryf]

Did it ever occur to you that this would cause huge problems between us if I told you? huh?

You know that I tell you everything. And you know that I love you no matter what.

Question is, Oliver...would you be there for me if I told you this? Or would you hate me?

I'd prefer not to find out that you hate me.

Do you have any idea how much this hurts?

[united_rule]

I promise i wouldn't stop loving you, even if its the worst thing that could happen. Do you really think id hate you? I promise what ever it is we will face it together.

[k8i_chaser_gryf]

Oliver, you have to promise me...

...promise me you won't leave me.

There was nothing we could have done.

Remember I love you. Always.

[united_rule]

I promise, I swear, i wont leave you.

And i will love you forever

[k8i_chaser_gryf]

Okay *takes deep breath*

It involves the letters p, g, and s.

and maybe pm too

You should know what I mean.

*tears up*

[united_rule]

Really?

OMG!

Are you ok?

Are you sure it was a PM?

[k8i_chaser_gryf]

That's what hurts the most.

The fact that you can't be here.

And I can't tell the others. I don't want anyone to think I'm being a drama queen.

And I felt alone without you. That's all there is to it.

So are you happy now that you know? Happy now that you got it out of me? Did you really want to know THAT in the end Oliver?

I don't think that you did.

[united_rule]

That's what hurts the most to me as well Katie.

The fact that I can't be there for you.

And I feel alone without you, incomplete. Then I feel jealous of your friends that see you everyday. They can touch you and i have stay away, far from you.

I'm not going to lie to you, yes it was a shock, but I'm glad you told me. I want to know, to be part of your life, to be there for you.

You are the first thought in the morning and the last at night and you fill most of the day.

I will always love you no matter what happens

Oliver

[k8i_chaser_gryf]

Oh...

I love you too. I'm sorry I was so bitchy, it's just I got frightened. I didn't expect it, and I just needed you here. The knowledge that you couldn't be here just made everything worse.

I thought that you wouldn't want me any more because a **** would have thrown everything we had away (or more I was worried that was what you might think). Then it turns out that THIS happened, and knowing what we've lost...

...well, it just makes everything harder.

I'm glad that you don't hate me, because I don't think I could have taken it.

You're my strength. You get me through every day, and I miss you.

[united_rule]

I love you, miss you and want you forever to be mine.

Love you for all of time

Oliver