I'm starting to fall apart again. Ryan has been getting so mad at me for everything little thing. I understand that he's bipolar and I wish he would take medications. He only tired one and stoped after it made him unable to control bowel movements when we went on a road trip... needless to say we got halfway to our destination and had to come so ( Read more... )

We're in plano,tx now again.

Ryan applied for ssi/disability today. He's going to a job interview right now too. Tomorrow, we're applying for emergency food stamps again because our food stamps got canceled April30th becuase we made like $80 more than the limit. Now we're both unemployed again so... we doing it. That's pretty much it.

I feel useless.

Well we're trying something out now that I'm not gonna say in here because I don't want everyone knowing. But it makes me trust Ryan a whole lot more when he asks me go to places by myself. That's all I'm gonna say about that ( Read more... )

I wish I had some friends.

Well, Ryan start lithium this morning. Right now he said he's feeling pretty much like normal, so we'll see how that goes later on I guess. The doctor told him not to work for a couple months unti he gets used to the med but its getting to the point where we're both gonna have to work. It seriously feels like living in Tucson all over again. ( Read more... )

things are: odd to say the least ( Read more... )

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Have at least one orgasm per hour.

Get your resolution here

merry christmas??

*board* Ryan's been at work for 13 hours now, probably about 3 more hours to go... but I guess the paychecks are good so...